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Post by shihui as guest on Dec 29, 2005 12:19:56 GMT -5
it's been such a long time since i've posted. i wish i could say that things are better for me now. but that's not the case. i'm still the same. i wanted to come back as a new person.
oh well.
undoubtedly, i've missed you guys. especially hoppe, nelly, ameise, froglet, sioned...
it kinda hurts. there's this connection among all of us. but we come and go almost as if we're acquaintances.
i hope that all you guys who have impacted me in a way or another will get the chance to read this. to know that you've been somebody in my life.
won't be hanging around here for too long for the day. no idea when the next time i pop by would be. hopefully by then i'd be a different person. hopefully by then, we all would be.
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Post by hoppe on Dec 30, 2005 2:05:24 GMT -5
Shihui - I am so glad that you came by. Have been thinking about you a lot. I wish I had some other way of contacting you (MSN or email) so I could hear how you are doing. I only come here once in a while to see if there might be any news from you or some of the others.
Right now my life is a mess. My boyfriend and I broke up (after 6 years) and I just moved out of our apartment. Today is the first day I will sleep in another place. It scares me like hell. But I have hope things will turn out okay. My picking has gotten much better. I have taken fluoxetine for 4½ months now and it really changed a lot. I am much more relaxed about everything including my skin. I am more social and have been able to hang out with friends and do other things that I have wanted to do for a very long time. I also feel an increased interest in the world around me. Right now I am dreaming of going traveling next year, maybe New Zealand. I will see.
Shihui, I am wishing you all the best. I really care about you. I will send you a message (PM) with my email address in it. You have to log in as shihui to read the PM, but I guess you know. I would be very happy to hear from you.
hoppe (already a little different person)
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Post by shihui on Dec 30, 2005 10:25:59 GMT -5
hoppe, i'm sorry about the break-up...*hugs* things will turn out okay. in fact, they already have started to change for the better looking at the big picture. i'm sure it's scary to sleep in a new environment.  i hope you feel less scared and hurt soon... i've added you to MSN btw, in hope of getting to know you better. take care, dear. *hugs* |
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Post by Froglet on Jan 1, 2006 9:40:20 GMT -5
Happy new year Shihui! Its so nice to hear from you again, its been such a long time! Ive missed you too.  How are things for you just now? I haven't been posting here often, but I check regularly. Things are pretty quiet here, its a shame. Hope to hear from you soon - Lara x |
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Post by ameise as guest on Jan 13, 2006 0:43:32 GMT -5
Hi Shihui!!
Wow- I just logged on here for the first time in months.... Well, I came on once in December & saw that Hoppe had updated her journal. Since then, I've been meaning to leave her a note. So I finally got to it tonight & now I see that you've been on, too, and that you & hoppe recently exchanged letters...
It really makes me happy & warms my heart. It also expecially touches me that both of you mentioned my name among the people on this board who you would miss.... I really feel the same & I know what you mean about how we are all connected in this strange way -- on one hand understand each other so deeply, but have never met, are only connected through ethereal cyberspace.
I am sorry to read that you are still struggling... but glad that you still can imagine and are looking towards the "transformation" to the new person that you want to be. Of course, remember that you are wonderful & perfect just as you are. In a way, the fact that you can imagine that pick-free, liberated version of you means that she is a part of you.
My picking (or not-picking) has gotten SO much better. I am truly starting to feel like it is a problem of the past. I wish I could tell you why... in some ways I feel like it ran its course... I picked for a long time & now I am ready not to pick.
Having a semi-forced break during a month of travelling with my bf also helped break the cycle. I am not entirely pick-free but I think it has been about 6 months since I last had a pick session... and there's been no damaging or obsessive picking since then --- I am not trying to boast (I hope you know that), I just hope that I can give you some hope/ encouragement....
Many of your posts reminded me of myself - so if it can get a lot better for me, it can for you, too.
BEST WISHES,
Ameise
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Post by best on Jul 1, 2007 12:38:43 GMT -5
yes, Im agree
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Post by done on Jul 1, 2007 12:39:58 GMT -5
yes, Im agree
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Post by shihui on Feb 17, 2008 10:59:14 GMT -5
Wow..It's been 2 years since I last posted here. I miss so many of the friends I made here. I have hoppe's email address but I do not email her..maybe because I don't know what to say? But if she ever reads this, I want her to know that I think about her and I hope she is doing well.
People here have been really supportive. I remember Nelly sent me her scar treatment all the way from Canada.
I've been browsing the forum and seeing old names (those I mentioned in my previous post - hoppe, nelly, ameise, froglet, sioned - and many others, honestly) makes me feel nostalgic...not about the situation but the people. I kinda have mixed feelings about that. Wished they were still hanging around here because it would be nice to see them (online). But if they were, it may just mean that things haven't gotten better.
Anyway, I don't pick my skin obsessively anymore. I still pick but it's just like a grooming thing and I'm not bothered by it or my looks. My complexion has improved a lot without the obsessive picking I must say. As for the depression, it was kinda cured but I stopped taking the meds and now I have mood-swings all the time. I want to start taking the meds again but my parents do not believe in them and their unsupportive behaviour makes me not go back to the doctor's. They do not realise that I do not feel as at peace as I had and that I'm very irritable. Why am I not surprised. I had to look for help myself when I had major depression.
Oh well. This wasn't meant to be a depressing post.
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Post by sweetpeaunregistered on Mar 1, 2008 15:25:52 GMT -5
I'm glad to read that you're doing better. I guess it's never a destination, but a journey you have to make every day for the rest of your life, you know. I wish more people like you were active on these boards. I'm going to keep posting, because I just found them this week and hope to get some support here.
xo, sweet Shihui. I feel for you.
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i hope you feel less scared and hurt soon...
