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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 23, 2004 12:42:20 GMT -5
Picked 2 today. thats as good as nothing. its ok right? not even in face. I shoudlnt be too strict and over exagerate. Its good that i improved i think.
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Post by reflection on Nov 23, 2004 14:17:24 GMT -5
3 i guess.. but only a second.. not compulsive
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Post by Hecate as a guest on Nov 23, 2004 23:20:40 GMT -5
Hey reflection,I've picked a tiny bit too, today.No real damage done tho.I'm glad you're improving & it's good you're not being too hard on your self.I'm still not sure how strict I should be,bit confuzed around that.But at the end what matters is that I'm doing the best I can,one day at the time. ;D About the make up,I don't use any,believe me I was tempted ,quite a few times,& got as far as putting some powder on my face & then washing it off.Never really got into it & don't think I ever will,think it has a lot to do with my beliefs & politics.Don't know much about cosmetics ,I wash my face with soap & then put some cream on.I did make an appointment with a dermatologist & hope to learn how to take care of my face bether & maybe get some tretment for reducing scaring. You seem really motivated & willing to deal with OSP & that's one giant step toward recovery.Thanks for your support.
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 24, 2004 9:35:59 GMT -5
Hey. I neither knwo when something is compulsive adn when it is normal. the other days i picked a bit. but today I am going to keep away 100%. I wish i didtn wear make up- it woudl be better for myskin. But i feel better with it on. sorry short reply.. gotta go.. will be on later Reflection
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Post by hoppe as guest on Nov 24, 2004 15:45:01 GMT -5
Hi reflection How are you today? I am glad things seem to be going well in school. Hopefully everything else will soon feel better too. It has been a while since we chatted.. let me know if you feel like it sometime. hoppe
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 24, 2004 15:59:28 GMT -5
Hey all is going well and I havnt picked at all today ;D Im setting my goal for 3 days and getting highlights if i make it... i have a good feeling.. I skratched my face but never picked. Thats improving. Hope u r ok too Reflection
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Post by hoppe on Nov 27, 2004 5:38:19 GMT -5
Hi Reflection Was it today you were going to get highlights? I hope it looks exactly how you wanted it to! I also hope your picking has been going okay. Remember, you also deserve the highlights if you did not manage the 3 days of ZT.... . Having picked is hard enough, you do not need to punish yourself further and deprive yourself of nice things. And getting those highlights might have a positive effect on how you look at yourself and might help you to not pick. It always helps me to do something nice for myself - because it helps me to like myself better and makes me realize that I deserve to be nice to myself. Sending you a smile - hoppe
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Post by Hecate as guest on Nov 27, 2004 7:30:54 GMT -5
Hi,Reflection Hope you had a good day & achieved your ZT goal.Did you get the highlights ?I had another pick free day,3th day today. ;D
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 27, 2004 12:03:12 GMT -5
Hey Hoppe and Hecate, I got the highlights... Im glad I did.. feel more confident. I didnt complete ZT fully but I did manage 3-4 days of very little pickign- that is not compulsive.. im really happy I managed. hope u r ok.. reflection
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 28, 2004 8:44:58 GMT -5
Picked a bit today but nothign serious. Didnt pick at all yesterday hardly and am motivated to get over this. My diet is going great...But did not follow it exactly today as I was in a bad mood.. But I am still on it and everything is going much better. REflectiion
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 28, 2004 12:02:49 GMT -5
Had a strange day. Last night went out.. That was fun.. untill we went clubing. I dont drink anymore cos of my diet.. and that doesnt help me loosen up. I ahvent danced the past times i have gone out.. I just stand there. So still and stuck. Anywasy i got home at 5 and the next day i am normally really moody. I was today too. I started by pickign 10 spots.. but it wasnt bad at all.. i mean i hardly touched them so no bad damage. Then i went running and got in a figth wiht my dad.. I provoked the fight.. THen i got home n couldnt be btoehred to make the diet food so ate somethign that was acceptable for the diet but not as good as it coudl have been. I ate too much cheese at the end and then I pucked it all up later. I dont do this often. A few tiems before, but nothing normal. My friend is having problems with eating disorders.. she took pills, drinks and over exercised before. Now she has started pucking after eating.. She told me as we r close.. SHe said she had only done it some times. Lately though she hasnt been eating and if she does she says she overeats and so has pucked a few times after. Last night she had two glasses of coke and immediatly threw up... she didnt even provoke it.. it just came automatically. Is this normal once u start forcing urself to puck? I know its not a forum about eating disorders,, but it just worries me. I have found out lately that every one has some kind of problem. The only reason u dont see it is cos they dont tell people. I have only realised this now. I guess its to do with getting older.. Before I thought it was somethign everyone just said. Anyway I hope everything works out for my friend. Hoppe u used to have similar problems right? How should I help her..? Thanx Reflection (I feel really relaxed now... and have decided not to pick tonight)
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Post by hoppe on Nov 28, 2004 13:59:32 GMT -5
Hi reflection! About your friend- yes, it is true I had similar problems. When I was 17-19, I was throwing up a lot. After some time the food started to come up again automatically, I did not need to force it. It was almost like a reflex.... . When I finally was able to stop, it took some time to learn to eat normally again. I had to be very careful to begin with what to eat so that my stomach did not get upset. But it got better after some months. I wish I knew how to help your friend. But it is difficult. You cannot help her if she does not want to have help. ... . When I was bulimic, I had a very close friend who knew about it. I had an agreement with her that I could call her anytime I felt like throwing up - and she would try to talk me out of it. I would also often sleep at her place if things were really bad. That was great. I never needed to throw up there. She was such a wonderful friend... . I miss her a lot. But back to your friend - I guess your friends situation is different, as she does not live alone, right? But maybe you can still offer her that she can call you anytime.... I remember that this was a great help for me. Otherwise, I guess therapy might be an idea. But not everyone is comfortable with - and not everyone benefits from it. I tried therapy for my eating disorder, but it did not help at all.... . I was first able to stop after I had found a good replacement behaviour - picking. So I do not really feel that I got over my eating disorder- I just replaced it. And recently, it has flared up again a little. I am not throwing up, but I have some problems eating.... . I think it is because I am fighting so hard with the picking. Hope, you are okay reflection. I picked some after 4 days of ZT. Trying to stay positive, but it feels hard just now... . hoppe
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 28, 2004 15:19:50 GMT -5
Hey Hoppe, Thanx for the advice.. I will tell her she can call me anytime when she feels like throwing up. I hope she will get better. How has ur eating become a problem again? Sux u broke 4 days of ZT but still look at the bright side. U managed many pick free days. Sooo good. I dunno what to do. I need another goal but am unsure how to do it. I am broke soon and cant keep setting goals like that. Anyway ill think of it for tomorrow. Reflection
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 29, 2004 9:34:07 GMT -5
I am so happy,. Everything is going my way right now!! I got invited for an interview at Oxford!!! Even though I might not get in and I dont have high expectations for that, I got asked for an interview and thats great!!! OMG so happy..I dont think I will pick today. There is no reason to and untill now i have managed full ZT today. Im just happy yet nervous.. ;D Anyway there is nothing to be nervous about... I was invited.. thats enough for me. ;D
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Post by Reflection as guest on Nov 29, 2004 13:21:28 GMT -5
Picked at 2 so far but only on chest and NOT compulsive. Is this compulsive? I stopped before it started bleeding. I accept this but no more.
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