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Post by CuseFan on May 3, 2004 8:45:34 GMT -5
hip hip horray for monday. ya hoo. hope you all had enjoyable weekends. mine was nice and relaxing. well, except i got back from visiting the bf's grandma and my parents called and said my great aunt died.....
got major burned on my driving side shoulder on the way down to PA this weekend. why why why!
seem to be in a bad mood, but really, picking is going good. well, atleast so far today. it seems i find myself needing to regroup like every monday. that i stay strong for a few days, and then make a downfall or something. so yes, today is monday, and i am regrouping, and trying to make a more conscious effort for some lasting time.
-xo
denice
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Post by reformedpicker on May 4, 2004 5:17:00 GMT -5
Heather-
Good luck! What a great idea- to set a timer to force you out of the bathroom! I think I'll use my microwave timer which is in the kitchen, so the noise will drive me so crazy I will HAVE to leave the bathroom to turn it off. Love it! Thanks for sharing this.
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Post by CuseFan on May 4, 2004 8:12:56 GMT -5
ok, day of of not touching anything. being gentle. man, making a promise to someone (hello heather!) is sure kicking my ass. last night, touched nothing. so far today, nothing. even on my commute, which is usually a rough time. heather, we can do this. it takes more will power than i have ever experienced, but we can do it. i decided last night to concentrate on my feet...make them look beautiful for summer. so, i got to concentrate on a part of my body, but in a good way. some nice exfoliating, slathered on some lotion, put a nice fuzzy pair of socks on, and went to bed. this morning they were real soft! so, i am gonna do that.
cant wait to see pics of the formal..... better take some and send em along!
keep me updated.
xo
denice
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Post by CuseFan on May 6, 2004 8:58:32 GMT -5
ok, ok, doing pretty good. did not pick a thing from monday night to wed night...but on my drive home, after a MAJOR stressful day at work, i picked some stuff on my head. as soon as i got home, i felt HORRIBLE for doing that, but was greatful that they were nothing that is exposed. so, i jumped in the shower, exfoliated those winter feet of mine, and then put my hair in double buns, princess leia style (keeps my hands off certain areas when you cant get to them!), and watched a few episodes of sex in teh city. was nice to relax.
so, today, double buns for work. i dont give a crap what my 2 coworkers say. whatever. i think they look cute. have been very good! yeah! thanks heather for everything. couldn't do it without you! and for all you other zt'ers, i hope you have found a buddy as super as mine!
later all!
-denice
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Post by CuseFan on May 10, 2004 9:12:53 GMT -5
hello helo, from yet another weekend on the road!
Heather, please do get on and tell how the formal was! dying to know!
so, as far as my progress, quite darn good. definately did not make it withno picking at all, but nothing really at all. a few spots on my scalp (that i have deterred from today with once again a very tight bun on the head!), and a spot on my leg thats ben around a while, but it was mostly dried skin, so i am trying not to worry so much.
yet another event with a fancy outfit coming up in july. oh yeah. i went shopping yesterday with my mom, tyring to find SOMETHING but nothing struck my fancy. lots of stuff that was backless, but not quite ready for that!
ok, to a no pick day!
- xo, denice
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Post by CuseFan on May 11, 2004 7:39:45 GMT -5
good morning all!
so, a very successful day yesterday. you know, it not so hard not to pick when everything is basically healed up and there is nothing really to pick! hum, who knew! looking forward to another day of non-picking...just gotta work on my scalp area a bit...nothing really bad there, but sometimes find myself searching.
got my ass out of bed at 6:30 (WHEW!) and took a nice walk. need to get myself in some sort of physical shape. thank you central new york for a nice long winter and keeping me inside to watch rereuns of sex and the city and trading spaces... now that is warm i must get out! i also got to work at a decent time...man, i am on a roll..
heather - hope you had an enjoyable night..well, as enjoyable as possible with butt loads of work. but i hope you found some comfort in friends! so proud of the non-picking!
xo
-d
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Post by CuseFan on May 12, 2004 8:16:39 GMT -5
today is definately a test. wearing shorts, and i need to keep my hands off all those little bumps that are non-existant to the human eye. i found myself "scratching" amd picking my thighs on the way to work, and though, NO NO NO! so, just gotta stop that! i remember last year on a nice long road trip to visit the bf, i got there after what was 3 hours of picking my thights were a disaster....red splotchy shit...
must not repeat this...
xo
d
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Post by CuseFan on May 16, 2004 20:14:57 GMT -5
yahoo! heather! congrats on the walking away.
sorry i have not posted. lots of baby neice time, thats for sure. its funny how you can enjoy time at your parents when you have a cute little baby there to keep you laughing.
well, another thing..i totally broke down on friday. andy was going out of town, and i was SOOO bored at work. that may be the major trigger. i was like sitting there at my desk doing NOTHING and just starting searching the face. super denice, super. squeeze and squeeze and SQUEEZE for like hours at a MINISCULE little bump that i justy knew had to have something in it. i mean, it was a bump, and the bump got bigger..there just had to be something. well, we all know, of course there was nothing. haven't i learned that already? led to scratching at other things. but now, i am under controo. lots of bandaids when at the apt, and just trying to be STRONG..like the girl i am supposed to be!
ok kids, have a good week. hip hip horray...tomorrow is monday. i better be able to stay incredibly busy at work cause a) it makes the time go much quicker, and b) then apparently i wont pick?? lets hope so.
xo
- d
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Post by CuseFan on May 19, 2004 8:03:36 GMT -5
Ok, i think I am back on track. Which is amazing since I have been missing my ZT buddy (darn college finals week...JK Heather! Good Luck! your gonna rock!). This morning, i squeeze something, but then back away quick. got back into the right mindset, i think.
the only problem is i still cannot get out of bed in the morning. any tips? would love to do my yoga/nyc ballet workout tape, but just can't get out of bed...i love my bed.....i love weekends.....
how can i conquer this "lazyness"?
xo
d
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Post by CuseFan on May 24, 2004 11:34:46 GMT -5
Heather,
sorry for the delay. was gone again for the weekend (a distant cousins baby shower, ya hoo...) and then this morning till now, NO INTERNET at the office. those bad thunderstorms did a number on us i guess!
so, YES i am in for a new ZT this week. i did SOOO bad this weekend. boredum? just to many breakouts to leave alone? who knows, but i was SOO ashamed. didn't even wanna go out in public (which has never happened to me before, so i was WAY depressed). i hated myself bad for going at stuff which away for the weekend.
ready for a new start. also think i am gonna get a nice summer haircut (too long now, only wear it in ponytails, getting boring...)
i am ready...
xo
denice
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Post by CuseFan on Jun 10, 2004 7:29:11 GMT -5
Heather,
Ok, so not so good at posting. so darn busy! coming home from work, and working on invitations for an eternity. i even had a dream that my car turned into a giant paper cutter......lord all mighty.
andy and i went to the apartment complex pool the other day...fricken melrose place (there is an adult pool and kids pool...). there were six pack guys playing beach volleyball, all the women in string bikinis with the huge boobs and tan bodies. we were like ashamed to strip down to our suits! and i wound't consider either of us overweight, but MAN! unreal.
picking is going good! really! just wish i could get over the vicious cycle of getting really bad during pms'ing, and then having the effects for that for a few weeks, and then cleared up, and then its time for pms again! nice.
hope your doing well and staying cool in bean town.
xo
d
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Post by CuseFan on Jun 15, 2004 7:42:06 GMT -5
ok, i suck at posting every night. i get so caught with other stuff, i just get lazy. like everything else in life it seems.
bad evening last night. had a really bad day at work, and then took it out on andy. felt really bad, bu i think he forgives me.
but, i did go to the pool in my new BIKINI! felt like maybe i could have some areas that could use improving, but i thought, hell, my boobs look really good in this suit, i am sure noone will notice the pick spot on my back or foot...but then i was getting out of the pool and tripped. so much for being cool!
heather, hope your doing great!
xoxoxo
d
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Post by CuseFan on Jun 23, 2004 20:36:01 GMT -5
heather,
how are things? ok here. been squeezing the CRAP out of this stupid thing on my face. hum, nothing is coming out, should i stop squeezing at every angle possible? one would think! have a nice bandaid over it now.
so, of my list of things i want to accomplish every day (working out, meditating, posting here, reading, and doing something good to myself aka doing my nails, and reading before bed) i have so far done 3, and plan to read before bed. not so darn bad! just gotta get the working out thing set. crap.
hope all is well.
xo
d
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Post by shutter on Jul 4, 2004 11:07:26 GMT -5
Hello Heather,
I'm a new member and I was just wondering what is ZT. I saw some of you posts you seem to be very strong. Keep up the good work. I been doing a little better, I only pick at my face. Every spot is healed or almost gone now I just have the red spots. yuck!!
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Post by shutter on Jul 4, 2004 11:08:24 GMT -5
Hello to you to CuseFan!!!!!! How have you been?
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