starting a new ZT

[Heather]

ok...late for class again.

But this is important. I haven't picked yet today. I will make it the rest of the day.

I'll post more later!

-H

[CuseFan]

Heather! Get job these last few days! Sounds like you did real well! I did indeed miss you. It was weird, me and my parents were driving out to Albany, and i was working on/reading my habit change workbook thing. My mom asked what i was doing and i told her, for my picking. i dont think she thinks i was so "serious" about it. she asked me to read what it said about it in there, and i did, feeling really weird that i was reveling to them was it was all about and indeed it was serious, and they were both pretty quiet. i dont think if they like think i am a total freak now, or what. then, this morning, i made my mom put a bandaid on a spot on my back (something my boyfriend usually does for me) and it just felt weird, except now it is way out on the open, or something. then we were talking about her stopping smoking, and she promised that she would buy the gum next week, and i promised to try my hardest to stop picking. that i wanted her to think about how hard it is to stop smoking, thats how hard it is for me too. so, well see. i really want her to stop. my sister will never bring that baby over (btw, the cutest baby in the world! i love her so much!!!) if the house smells even remotely like smoke!
ok, very much ranting. i did not do so well these past few days, but its been hard. i feel like i am running round the past few/next weeks with trips and a business trip and the baby and i cant get into a regular schedule. i have not worked out for a week, and its really annoying!
well talk soon! i have to twork tomorrow (yippe da-day good friday...) so i will be online.
till then
-d

[Heather]

Hey D,
You know I was thinking...the weeklong time frame was very helpful when I started this thread.
I think I'm going to set another short term goal: Be gentle to skin through Thursday of this coming week. How does that sound to you?
Chat tomorrow!
-H

[CuseFan]

heather,
did realyl well today. probably cause i was really busy! had to go to the eye doctors, and was sitting round forever waiting, so started like searching my scalp for something to "keep me busy", but stopped as soon as i thought about it!
how was the track meet?
sorry for the real quick update. more tomorrow!
happy easter!
xo
d

[CuseFan]

heather,
happy easter!
who would have thought that it would be flattering for a bump on your nose to make you think of me. seriously, i am touched!
i did well today, thought not as well as i would have liked, i feel like that is becoming quite a pattern. yuck. was talking on the phone with my sister and was looking at my legs (still in pajamas..yeah!) and pulled some little scab off. then found another one, then was just searching. some days you just need an extra push!
talk to you tomorrow!
-xo, d

[CuseFan]

Heather,
How did you do last night? Gentle Gentle? I did, although not that hard, went to sleep not long after we chatted. today is a new day, and so far so good. i gotta get a move on my other "stuff" to, getting back into working out on a nightly basis, not buing anything i really dont need, working on the side stationary business, all that stuff that i have let slide since the wedding.
ok, work, yuck!
-d

[CuseFan]

Good Morning Heather!
How was yesterday? I didn't do good. I hate this pattern of not doing good. I got at some spots on my leg. Yuck. Summer is right around the corner and I wanna wear shorts without feeling embarassed. I never don't wear shorts, but when wearing them, i definately feel like everyone is looking at me. little tank tops? thats another story. although my back is looking really good. i bough a cute top and am using it as motivation.
a new gentle day. great so far.
-xo, d

[CuseFan]

hey heather,
happy thursday?!?! so far, no picking. think today may be the day, despite the third eye on my forehead. andy, the bf, said he didn't even notice it until i pointed it out. just being nice, or is it really really miniscule? probably the latter.
my parents and grandma are taking me out to lunch today. yeah! free food! leaving for chicago for this huge trade shoe/business trip thing on saturday morning. i think my hotel will have internet, so hopefully can keep up with this. wanna look georgeous, get people to come to the booth (we are promoting one of our calendars about home improvement, its a hardware show, i expect a lot of men to be there....sell my brains out, even though that is not me job, damn people, i am a graphic designer! not a sales person, but i guess that is what happens when you work at a company with 4 people, i know, i am venting, blabbing, pardon me!) hopefully the large eye will be gone.

[CuseFan]

FIRE! I am not doing good. Really, Chicago/being alone in the hotel home really killed me. So this morning, not to be so darn graphic, but i pulled some crap off a small scab on my leg with TWEEZERS (AHHH!!). I had been at it with my fingers the last few days. then squished and smoshed and messed with a small little clogged thing on my chin, which finally did pop, but really. NOT NECESSARY! gotta get it together. i made this deal with my mom about me not picking if she would try to stop smoking. she did buy the nicorette gum, but has not tried it yet. so, maybe her not going through with that has left me not wantng to try so hard tonight. well, going there for dinner tonight, so maybe we will have a pow wow of sorts. get it together.
hope all is going well for you! i think i will try the names on the piece of paper that i can look at....and maybe my mom can too.... after all she has a beautiful new grandchild that she needs to love for a long time!
xo
denice

[CuseFan]

hey hey heather! i hope last night was a successful one for you, and that you didn't overwork yourself.
i went to dinner at my parents and for 'survivor'. yes, we are survivor dorks. i made some cards for myself to carry round, place on the mirror. so far it has worked, i have looked at them and kept my hands away! my mom said she would make hers tonight to stick where her cigarettes are and such, but she keeps slacking. who knows.
ok...another day. and a FRIDAY at that. looking forward to a weekend, since i missed mine cause of chicago last week. and tomorrow i get to go see my little neice! yeah!
xo
d

[CuseFan]

heather,
where you at? doing ok? my little cards are helping, but i did attack a few bad spots this weekend. like we always say, today is a new day!
-d

[sos]

Hi Cusefan & Heather,
I'm glad the cards are working Cusefan...I'm with you on the ZT...I have nasty pimple like by/almost in my nose that hurts bad...looking forward to hearing from Heather...
ox,
sos

[CuseFan]

ok, so its been a bad few days. nothing i can do about the past. today, a new day. i will not touch anything. i just cant. i can be strong! updates as the day goes on.
-denice

[sos]

Go D, Go D, you can do it , you can do it, If I can...you can...I'll check back later...have a great day...
ox,
sos

[CuseFan]

Hello my ZT girrls! How are things.
Heather, your right, that website was pretty darn funny. I love that kind of stuff...computer losers?? We can blame it on 4 days of sunshine growing up in the cuse and roc roc rah ( my nick name for the rochester).
doing really well today. the warm weather keeping me happy and smiley? the fact that i FINALLY have a day off tomorrow and going on a road trip (only to pennsylvania to visit the bf's grandma, but still...a day off is a day off...). who kows why today seems to easy, but hell, i will take it. my face still doesn't look too great from my pick fest a few days ago, but healing up nicely.
why why why does the skin on your back not heal as nice at the face though? man, that kills me...
love you all!
-denice