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Post by anonymousartist on Nov 9, 2005 0:42:54 GMT -5
Princess, if you're having problems with posting, you may need to choose a longer expiration time when you log in (mine never expires but no one else uses my computer). If that doesn't work, write your posts in a text file on your computer (notepad, wordpad, word, texteditor, whathaveyou) and then copy and paste it to the boards. Hope that helped  |
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Post by princessdp on Nov 9, 2005 8:53:51 GMT -5
Thank you very much for your advise. I think I am going to have to change the expiration time. would you happen to know where I would go to do that. I feel so computer illerate.
luvs,
Deepa
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Post by anonymousartist on Nov 9, 2005 11:27:21 GMT -5
When you go to log in, under the password box it says, "stay logged in for:" and you can choose the amount of time from the pull-down menu.
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Post by princessdrp on Nov 9, 2005 21:21:26 GMT -5
I think it may be something else, because when I logged in it was set for 6 hours, and as can recall the times that i have logged on, it has always been set for 6 hours. Thank you so much for the advise and your helpfulness.
luvs
princessdrp
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Post by anonymousartist on Nov 10, 2005 11:04:53 GMT -5
Ah well, it was worth a try. The text file thing should definitely work though. Sometimes if I write something bif on any forum I'll highlight and copy the whole thing just in case, 'cause it sucks to type out something big and have it be lost.
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Post by ODAT on Nov 19, 2005 12:02:16 GMT -5
I cannot abstain from skin picking alone. I have never found anyone else willing to go to any lengths, one day at a time. I would love a support group of fellow sufferers who are desperate to stop. It is making my life unmanageable.
Hopeful
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Post by ODAT on Nov 19, 2005 12:24:39 GMT -5
I began picking at my skin as a teenager. I remember the "buzz" it gave me - and it still can. I do it for different reasons: compulsively, absent-mindedly, purposely for "relaxation", and for perfectionism (wanting smooth skin - which is so ironic because whenever I squeeze I end up picking and then going way overboard and I look WPRSE!).
This is thee most humiliating behaviour I have ever engaged in - skin picking. I feel like a monkey, less than human, .....it is so embarrassing. I have been in 12-step recovery from compulsive eating for 2.5 years - a miracle thanks to my strong program with daily support via the phone with my sponsor and "home group" that is 2000 miles away in another country! Anyway, with the skin thing, I have - I HOPE - hit my bottom. It's like with the food - I have to want to quit/recover more than I want to pick. I do. I cannot have the spiritual connection I so desperately crave while I am compulsively picking at my skin. I know the only way to go for me is 100% abstinence. It's like with booze, food, cigarettes - it's the first "pick" that is deadly. It's sets me up for a binge. I know because I have tried everything I can think of to try to control the behaviour and I always end up covered with scabs (legs, arms, face, scalp, neck....).
What I am absolutely powerless over is when I actually get a "real" pimple - you know, not just a tiny little thing that no one else can see except me when I am an inch away from a well-lit mirror. I think this is my perfectionism. I do NOT know how anyone can walk around with a true-blue, obvious zit on their face and not want to rip it off. I want to know how. I've bought special little bandaids but I squeezed this most recent breakout (the result of sitting in front of a special lamp for seasonal affective disorder --oops) BEFORE I put a bandaid on to cover it up. I need help. It is a blessing I went out in public this week at all after bingeing on picking at my face, red scabs all over as well as a lump on my cheek with a bandaid on it. I kept praying and asking God to relieve me of the bondage of self (step 3 prayer) and I just did what I needed to do.
I have isolated so much from this disease or problem or whatever it's referred to. I cannot isolate anymore. But I am absolutely baffled about how to have 100% abstinence when I have a "real" breakout. I hope I'm making sense. I am so glad to know I am not alone. I really want to stay connected.
Thank you all for being there.
ODAT = One Dat At a Time
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Post by anonymousartist on Nov 19, 2005 15:32:46 GMT -5
You don't have to isolate anymore. People understand what you're going though I know, it's hard to leave a breakout alone. I think first it helps to really weigh the consequences of picking at it. It will make the breakout worse and lead to future breakouts. It will hinder the skin from doing on it's own what it needs to do to heal the infection. It will make the little white or skin colored bump into a bigger, inflamed, red scab. There are medicated concealers on the market now so you can both treat the breakout and cover it up. Remember that people on tv with supposedly flawless skin usually have make-up covering them and they look beautiful even if there is a bump, and it's all because of make-up. A little patience is required to clear up a real break out. I find that aloe gel helps mine though. Just keep trying. It'll make a difference. |
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Post by ODAT on Nov 21, 2005 14:37:10 GMT -5
Okay, I think I'm figuring out how to wade through this website a bit.......THIS is where I post for 12-step recovery, right?
Reading all these postings is amazing to me. It is impossible to pretend it is not a big problem here. And, of course, it is connected to other things like anxiety, depression, OCD - it is a symptom of a larger problem. For me it is about trust, about letting go and letting life happen on life's terms. hard to do but the alternative is insanity - scabs and scars all over my face, arms, legs, stomach - wherever I can find even the tiniest of bumps. I don't want my husband to touch me, I put up a "wall" so he won't touch me.......anyway, I have hope. I have 100% abstinence right now, this minute.
I have learned the hard way that if I pick ANYWHERE on my body I will eventually wind up picking at my face. I know the only way for me is 100% abstinence. And I can only hack the thought of that one day at a time, just for today i do not have to pick, scratch, squeeze, or stare at my skin.
I GIVE UP TRYING TO CONTROL THIS THING!!!!!!!!!
I will post tomorrow to touch base.
Is anyone is 12-Step Pick-free recovery???
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Post by Spring Angel on Nov 26, 2005 1:14:56 GMT -5
Hi ODAT, By now I have found you at the other website, so would encourage you to post your step work there, as we are kind of moving away from this site. The other site it www.selfinjuriousskinpicking.com. There is also a new board, see the thread to that effect, but the steps aren't up and running there yet. Soon they will be. Meantime, good for you for posting on Step One! Keep up the good work. I also recommend reading the Big Book online on the otherwebsite, and reading through the Step Two thread next, and especially reading Chapter 3 "We Agnositcs" in the Big Book, even if you believe in God. That is my favorite chapter. See you soon! luv, Spring |
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Post by Judi on Mar 2, 2006 12:15:14 GMT -5
Hi,
Is this Forum/Board still functioning?
Judi
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Post by Dee13 on Mar 3, 2006 8:55:27 GMT -5
There are some of us that still pop in, but not a lot of activity. Dee
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Post by Spring Angel on Aug 30, 2007 21:41:05 GMT -5
Hi, Just want to move this up top so people can have a chance to see it. Work the steps. Come join us at www.stoppickingonme.comluv, Spring |
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Post by Spring Angel on Oct 9, 2008 5:31:01 GMT -5
Hi, Just moving this thread up to the top. Come visit us and attend our 6 weekly OSPA Meetings!! www.stoppickingonme.com/bb/We are an active site with many members. Come join us! There is hope and there is recovery, luv, spring |
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Post by sfseeeghh on Feb 9, 2010 22:13:17 GMT -5
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