Who's Going to the online meeting tonight?

[anon irresp]

sorry didn't log it

i'm going online, can't go to actual one, can't leave the house


follow up of wound on cheek:
i guess you were right it was infected
by further touching it and making it so so so big.
biggest i have ever had
my left side blew up, it go swollen
it started with lower jaw at night
woke up with whole side swollen
my lower eyelid swelled so much

my father drove me to the doctor
i put ice
and they gave me ice
and sent me to their surgery dep
cause they don't have derm department

they gave me super hight dose of doxycycline

maybe i should have gone to derm? its good though, but i have to eat a lot of yogurt

i put gauze on it

can you believe as soon as my mother went out the door i looked at it and touched a bit

it will take a lot of training to become normal after this has started

life is taunting me and i'm taunting all the people around me with my illness: going trough the process of getting credentialed for a job, and another just called saying they desperately need someone. look at me i can't get out of the house and i have opportunities. i posponed til next week the offer where they need someone, and told the one cert for now that i got a rash that got infected. so far they are still willing to wait for me. i am cruel to myself and the people that depend on me


its really finding our self worth
and realizing our thoughts are irrational

i actually posted something earlier
the 10 attributes of ocd
where it said don't follow your intuition

[Secret]

Anon,

I know exactly how you feel. I've had my face swell up like that, God, I know how you feel. I've missed countless opportunities due to this disease. It's so crazy, when you get a wound like that, the best thing you can do is forget about it, to let go of it, but how are you suppose to ignore pain like that? I quite my job the other day because I was afraid to go in because I felt like my face was messed up. I have a problem. Its consumed our lives, we have to get well.

[guestguest]

What online meeting and where is it?

[Secret]

Click on the self mutil. website group post, then click on the website.

[anon,irresp.]

secret

please tell me more about how long it lasted when your face swelled up. how much of your face? how long did it last? did you have a fever? what antibiotic?.....if you don't feel comfortable on the forum, please tell me we can email.

[Secret]

Anon,
One time I swole up the entire left side of my face, and like you I decided to go to the doctor. I didn't swell up my eye, but I made my lips swollen. I have swollen up my eyes, though, made myself look like I had a black eye, anyway, the biggest I had they put me on erythromicines and I could see a difference the next day. I think I felt pretty miserable for about a week. I didn't have a fever or anything, but I felt awful. You will be o.k. Don't touch it, breath and relax. You'll be fine.

[anon,irresp.]

erythromycin cream or oral antibiotic? i am asking cause i have aknemycin which has erythromycin but some these other products which don't seem good for an open wound (like my jabbing fingers are)..mineral oil, petrolatum, paraffin talk..

[Secret]

They gave me, like 400 mg. dose of oral erythromicines, and told me to use regular soap to wash, not too hot or anything, and I think they told me not to put anything else on it, and no matter what, leave it alone. I still take the erythromicines because I feel like they keep my skin clear, and if I pick, which I have a tendancy to do, It won't be as infected. I feel kind of depressed right now because my body is getting used to them. I wonder what a cortizone shot would do for you. I've had a couple of those during some other biggies, and they really make a difference.