Post by Butterfly on Sept 6, 2003 14:25:03 GMT -5
I'm doing a wee bit better today, didnt pick (only a few).... I bought some creams-have to go to different chemists' each time-it'd seem weird to buy the same cream every week when it's not supposed to be used so frequently
Still far from feeling resolved though. And i hate i'll have to experience same amount of shame and self-hatred till i decide to make it stop for good. I guess i can change that can't I?
Think of a plan...say, come here and vent whenever i get the urge right? Or...
-go for a walk
-make a phonecall (altough i may be on the phone and touching my skin at the same time, so this is a no-no unless i call someone who does know and will talk me out of it)
-have a shower
-arrange a night out, wherever possible but with people around
Cant think of much to do. Of course i've never done the aforementionned things, i always choose to pick. And as i read somewhere, once I start i cant stop myself, thinking i might as well finish the job, harm is done, what difference will it make?
One sad part of it is that i want to make it last longer in a way cause i know once i stop i have to face the ugly reality i've just created with my hands. So i prefer ruin myself some more instead of cutting it off and do me a favour. Pathetic huh?
I have many questions i wanna to ask you all but first off, how has this site helped you out? did you notice any improvement ever since you registered here? feeling stronger now and more able to break the habit?
I want to stop it. I dont know how. And i dont know if just struggling not to do it will help me stop it for good
I used to be bulimic. It's been 1 1/2 year that i'm not...every attempt to force myself not to do it simply made me want it more. It stopped when i no longer wanted it, when i truly didnt want it-it came from within
i wish the same would happen with skin-picking, that would help me tremendously
Thanx for listening guys
any comments or suggestions are welcome
Butterfly
Still far from feeling resolved though. And i hate i'll have to experience same amount of shame and self-hatred till i decide to make it stop for good. I guess i can change that can't I?
Think of a plan...say, come here and vent whenever i get the urge right? Or...
-go for a walk
-make a phonecall (altough i may be on the phone and touching my skin at the same time, so this is a no-no unless i call someone who does know and will talk me out of it)
-have a shower
-arrange a night out, wherever possible but with people around
Cant think of much to do. Of course i've never done the aforementionned things, i always choose to pick. And as i read somewhere, once I start i cant stop myself, thinking i might as well finish the job, harm is done, what difference will it make?
One sad part of it is that i want to make it last longer in a way cause i know once i stop i have to face the ugly reality i've just created with my hands. So i prefer ruin myself some more instead of cutting it off and do me a favour. Pathetic huh?
I have many questions i wanna to ask you all but first off, how has this site helped you out? did you notice any improvement ever since you registered here? feeling stronger now and more able to break the habit?
I want to stop it. I dont know how. And i dont know if just struggling not to do it will help me stop it for good
I used to be bulimic. It's been 1 1/2 year that i'm not...every attempt to force myself not to do it simply made me want it more. It stopped when i no longer wanted it, when i truly didnt want it-it came from within
i wish the same would happen with skin-picking, that would help me tremendously
Thanx for listening guys
any comments or suggestions are welcome
Butterfly