Post by angelkiss on Sept 5, 2003 23:08:16 GMT -5
I haven't been to this board in such a long time, I'm sorry I've neglected you guys!! At first when I saw the nearly empty board, I thought I had gone to the wrong place!! It really sucks that somebody spammed the site, but I'm sure we will all fill it up with posts in no time.
I haven't been around because I have been busy and also b/c I have been dealing with issues in my life, which I'm sure you all understand. Good news is, I have dealt with things with my parents, dealt with my own anger, emotions, messed up ways of thinking, and besides that the medication I'm on has kicked in in a big way. I feel better than I have in my entire life. A HUGE weight has been lifted off me. I was suddenly ready to deal with picking. And this time, it is a lot easier to stop. I don't think I was ready before.
I haven't completely quit yet but I'm on the way. I have a lot more confidence in myself now. This time, I know I don't need picking the way I did before.
I think stopping picking is a two-part deal: first, you must deal with the real reasons you pick (or the things that reinforce your picking, let's say). whether it is your thought process or your childhood or a bad experience you had, you have to deal with it instead of putting it away and trying to forget. The second part is simply breaking the habit, which we all try to do every day by writing notes to ourselves and distracting ourselves or putting on bandaids and playing with koosh balls. This is the part I'm working on now. But it's definitely a two-part process, you can't just break the habit without dealing with the emotional end of it. In a stressful situation, you will go back to it again.
Well, I just wanted to say for anybody who is skeptical of therapy or drugs, I was at first myself. But when you really are ready, it can help so much. This has been the best experience of my life. This has changed my life, and still is changing my life, in ways I didn't think were possible. I thought I was stuck being this one person for the rest of my life, this person I didn't even like that much, this person I actually hated and hurt everyday. But not too long ago, I found myself looking in on my life like an outsider, admiring all the wonderful things about it, and then I started to cry and realized I finally had fallen in love with...me!
Good luck guys, you are all such wonderful people, and thanks for understanding. I always know that if things get rough again and I need some support or just want to chat, I can come here.
I haven't been around because I have been busy and also b/c I have been dealing with issues in my life, which I'm sure you all understand. Good news is, I have dealt with things with my parents, dealt with my own anger, emotions, messed up ways of thinking, and besides that the medication I'm on has kicked in in a big way. I feel better than I have in my entire life. A HUGE weight has been lifted off me. I was suddenly ready to deal with picking. And this time, it is a lot easier to stop. I don't think I was ready before.
I haven't completely quit yet but I'm on the way. I have a lot more confidence in myself now. This time, I know I don't need picking the way I did before.
I think stopping picking is a two-part deal: first, you must deal with the real reasons you pick (or the things that reinforce your picking, let's say). whether it is your thought process or your childhood or a bad experience you had, you have to deal with it instead of putting it away and trying to forget. The second part is simply breaking the habit, which we all try to do every day by writing notes to ourselves and distracting ourselves or putting on bandaids and playing with koosh balls. This is the part I'm working on now. But it's definitely a two-part process, you can't just break the habit without dealing with the emotional end of it. In a stressful situation, you will go back to it again.
Well, I just wanted to say for anybody who is skeptical of therapy or drugs, I was at first myself. But when you really are ready, it can help so much. This has been the best experience of my life. This has changed my life, and still is changing my life, in ways I didn't think were possible. I thought I was stuck being this one person for the rest of my life, this person I didn't even like that much, this person I actually hated and hurt everyday. But not too long ago, I found myself looking in on my life like an outsider, admiring all the wonderful things about it, and then I started to cry and realized I finally had fallen in love with...me!
Good luck guys, you are all such wonderful people, and thanks for understanding. I always know that if things get rough again and I need some support or just want to chat, I can come here.