Post by scarreddaisy on Sept 5, 2003 20:20:04 GMT -5
I haven't posted in a while... I've been working on a lot of "me" things.. getting everything ready for school... which is going really well.. I have really bad anxiety about it though.. every day before class I kinda flip out.. I assume its just amplified jitters due to my anixety disorder and eventually will go away...put my picking its been really really good... still haven't had a pick free day since my first.. but I haven't had time to dedicate myself to it.. My shoulders are healed... they were open all summer ... cuz i just couldnt leave the damn scab on there.. i got my back a lil bit the other night but covered it in neosporin to fix it.. and one lil spot on my face... but other than that... I am golden.. I found that I was picking my hair a lot more when I thought it was "dirty" and I had had dyed hair since freshman year ( 4yrs ago) this is the first summer in a long time ive had natural hair and its got soo oily so I was always picking.. SO I treated myself to some $8.00 hair dye at rite aid and I have bouncy shiny not oily feeling hair! hehe I psyched myself out.. but its lighter so I dont want to pick as much cuz I dont want to pick and have it show... its not so easy to hide.. So, yeah..I guess I'm just saying that I'm doing better...I'm seeing someone too which makes me not want to pick so much... he thinks highly of me too, which is a nice treat... most guys take me for granted I suppose.. anyway, I havent been around much.. last time I was on I saw the board swammped with posts from some jerk...grrr.. that frusterates me cuz this is my lil haven... some people are so ignorant and mean and just stupid... neways i just wanted to write and see how you are all doing..