Post by karla on Jan 27, 2006 19:28:17 GMT -5
I have recently completed an alcohol programme and have decided to get my life in order. Just brwosing on the net, i find hundreds of sites for people like me. I pick compulsively and disgustingly. My arms and legs are covered in dark brown blotches. I never cut myself purposely but i can turn a simple graze into a full grown gash in weeks. And even though i know that i dont want the scar, anytime i go to stop, i think ah well one more time wont make a difference. I do it when im bored, stressed anytime. People always ask me what happened to my arms, it loks like ive been shot a hundred times, my ankles are basically brown with scars (shaving accidents). Ive scars obmy face which have ruined my looks, a huge one under my chin that just seems to define me. Everyone stares at it and its embarrassing when i cant give an explanation. But been an alcoholic and now facing this ordeal, having a compulsive disorder has totally shocked me. I am only 22 years old and am usually out going. I cried when i saw these sites cos i didnt think anyone else did it. As for my nails, well ive always bit them and still dont really care abpout that but its the damge i do to myslef physically that kills me. Its such a taboo subject.
