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Post by Dramaqueen on Mar 19, 2005 21:55:01 GMT -5
Hi guys!
I recently ordered Proactive Skin Lightening Lotion and it has made a difference. My right side of my face has a lot of red scars from picking. They used to be so bad that I wouldnt even go swimming because of fear of my makeup coming off and exposing me. I have noticed a difference from this lotion in a matter of days and I think it will only get better. Today I saw my mom for the first time in months and she said "Your scars are gone!" I was so happy inside. Just wanted to let my friends on here know. Take care. ;D
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Post by lauryn on Mar 19, 2005 23:09:04 GMT -5
yeah,
im happy for you.
i ordered it awhile back and it seemed that after a bit my skin habituated to it.
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Post by Dramaqueen on Mar 20, 2005 20:26:50 GMT -5
Lauryn,
Are you serious? That really sucks, if I find anything else I will let you know. How are you by the way?
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Post by lauryn on Mar 20, 2005 21:29:34 GMT -5
i tried to kill myself again two days ago. but other than that its good. i just made love to my bf.
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Post by Dramaqueen on Mar 21, 2005 22:26:02 GMT -5
Lauryn!!! What is going on girl? Talk to me, why did you try and kill yourself again? Can I help at all? I have tried once too so I know that feeling of utter helplessness. I would really like to talk to you. xoxo
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Post by lauryn on Mar 21, 2005 23:09:42 GMT -5
its not much really. i just have bouts of severe depression. and my bf wasn't available to help so i just figured that id rather die than go through what i was goin through at the moment.
it has passed but im sure it will return. hopefully ill be stronger.
this shit is hard
thank you so much for posting
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Post by Dramaqueen on Mar 22, 2005 21:55:26 GMT -5
Im here if you need to talk ok? I hate how depression can sneak up on you and render you helpless in the most inopportune times. Yes you are right, this shit is hard. Talking about it helps me so you can talk to me without thinking that I will judge you. I actually really like talking to people about their problems. Im thinking of becoming a counselor since its one of the only things that doesnt bore me in this world. That sucks that your bf wasnt there and I know that feeling very well. I dated a "rockstar" and he didnt care about me half as much as his band. Do you like Sex and the City? The reason I ask is because when I get really sad I go out and rent a bunch of episodes and it seems to help me. Take care.
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Post by lauryn on Mar 22, 2005 23:37:08 GMT -5
i like sex and the city but i cant leave the house due to my disability.
thanks for extending yourself. much appreciated.
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Post by Dramaqueen on Mar 23, 2005 1:59:09 GMT -5
So you never get to leave the house? Do you ever go out just for a walk or something? I hope Im not prying I was just curious.
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Post by lauryn on Mar 23, 2005 14:08:23 GMT -5
no, not really i never feel good enough to leave
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Post by hoppe on Mar 24, 2005 4:38:36 GMT -5
Hi Lauryn
I am sorry to read how difficult things are for you. I was wondering if you get any kind of therapy? And when you say you don't feel good enough to leave the house, do you mean, you don't feel you look good enough? Maybe there is the possibility of going when it is dark outside? Then nobody would see you but you could still have some air, get away from things for a short while.
I have myself been housebond sometimes for weeks at a time (in order to heal) and I know it makes everything so much worse. Getting outside just for a little bit, feeling the sun and the wind in my face, it makes such a difference to how I feel. Especially when I am depressed. My depression has made me very suicidal during the last year and I was several times very close to killing myself, because I just could not handle things anymore. I have taken tiny steps at a time in the right direction by going to therapy and trying to learn to like myself and reduce my picking etc. and I am finally on the way to getting much better. I want to let you know that life can be much better than you are able to imagine it right now. Please do not give up.
hoppe
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Post by lauryn on Mar 24, 2005 17:44:05 GMT -5
thanks hoppe those are all great suggestions.
when my anxiety isnt too bad i do do those things but lately its been worse.
my bf takes me for car rides at night so i can feel the wind and during the dya i open all the windows in my apartment to let the sun in. all in due time. i remember the days when i use to feel good so i know i can do it.
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