I STOPPED!!!

[lx]

Hey!

I normally post at another board, but I wanted to spread the good news!!

I stopped!

I'm 24 and have been picking for 17 years. I used to dig in my face and legs with needles.

I came to the realization that my problems came out of feeling like my mom was controlling my life. I felt like I needed to regain control over ME.

I also got to the point where I was picking a very little and was journalling to help me ward off subconscious picking.

I was sad when it came time to end this. It was scary, and I thought it would kill me. I decided that I need to quit to prove that it can be done. I know that if I don't step up and overcome this, there is no hope for anyone!


And I have hope for everyone!!

I stopped. Covered the mirrors, broke the lightbulbs threw out the pointy things, took my 100 mgs of Zoloft
and I stopped.

WOO HOO!!!

I have NEVER BEEN HAPPIER!!!

[Maryann]

congrats!!I wish I could say the same.

[pamela]

Hi lx! ;D
congratulations!
I will follow your steps and cover my mirrors,but how do I do when I have to put my makeup?
I'm so happy for you!!!!!
hurray!!!!!!!!1

[pamela]

I forgot.I wanted to ask you what the other board is?
and about your mom,my situation is almost the same...
maybe that has something to do? You figured it out in therapy?

[anonymousartist]

That's awesome. My skin was almost clear yesterday and I went and butchered my arms (well, what I thought was a little damage was more than I thought it would be). I am so ready to stomp this thing so I don't have to worrry about it anymore.

[lx]

pamela- the other board is saveface.tripod.com

it has no painting chickens. Sorry.

Uh, yeah bout the mom thing. I realized that I hate junk in my pores because it makes me feel like I'm being invaded, or intruded upon. I always remember my mom being overbearing about eveything from day one, and I think i grew up with a need to strike out and prove that my body was mine, under my control. Like, she wouldn't let me shave in middle school, so I started pulling out my leg hairs. Stuff like that.

A LOT of people have mentioned problems w/ overbearing/shame oriented/overly religious/or abusive parents. The body is a very accessable thing to a child that is out of control. Its the one thing that's yours and no one elses. By wounding myself I was proving that my soul mattered in this world.

[anonymousartist]

I think I really stopped feeling like I mattered in this world. My destructive habits like picking became the only things I would give to myself. I still can't really justify doing good for myself. I feel like I need a cause, but maybe I don't.

[pamela]

thanks lx.
Well my mom gave a lot of freedom ,but she has to be in control of othe kind of things,like cleaning of the house,how things have to be done,or doing all herself.
But as Becca said,the reasons for picking I think there must be a disbalance in the functioning of the brain,and plus all the other causes also.
Thanks for the link.

[newandbetterme]

thank you for your post

i will follow your path

i will show that i can once again become the old and happy and confident me

thanks

and i am happy you did it.