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Post by A on May 8, 2003 9:17:06 GMT -5
I've discovered that most of my picking occurs when I'm not involved in some sort of physical activity. I recently got the flu and had a lot of diggin' time with the old body. Name it and I'll pick it. I often wonder if my "acne" is really as bad as I think it is. Anyway, I have all these lovely scabs, sores, etc. everywhere. My husband finally decided to ask what happened to my face. He must have thought I had some sort of mutated exotic virus. I was so angry at myself I told him the truth. I pick at myself. I pick at anything and everything. He had this idea:
He wanted me to write down when I pick (I already do this). Then he suggested I read the number of times I pick and what I pick out loud to him. It actually felt so good to tell the truth, I have no entries in journal...yet. Not to offend anyone or sound too pessimistic; I'm sure that there is no end all cure to this disorder, but I'm willing to try anything that sounds reasonable to fend it off for as long as possible. I'm trying to be positive, after all, too much negativity can't be good.
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Post by sagacious on May 9, 2003 15:58:10 GMT -5
A, I can see this working for some. I know with OCD they tell you to write down what is going on at that moment to see if you can find the trigger for the episode and after awhile you can, sometimes, see a pattern. This might work for me. Reading aloud to someone why I picked when it already makes me feel bad anyways would make me determined to keep the page blank. I will try this, thanks for the idea. Hope it goes well for you as well......Saga
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Post by A on May 10, 2003 9:35:39 GMT -5
Sagacious, it seems to be working a little. It is really hard to do, and it does make me feel terrible to do it. It is forcing me to face and admit to the hard truth, instead of making my usual excuses. I'm too stressed out today; I'm not active; etc. This is me though. Everyone is different. For me at least, vocalizing my picking sessions keeps me "honest." I try to keep in mind what my grandmother used to say, "If you don't like the truth change it." That's not to say that we are supposed to live in a fantasy world, but that we should face the things we don't like and stand up to them. This is ME though. I realize this isn't the answer for everyone. I tend to over analyze things and allow the causes for my picking to become my excuses. This is a way for me to take responsibility for my actions and my emotions. After all who has the right to control how I feel?! I cannot allow a person or a picking to make me angry or destroy the potential for a good day. Sorry for the rant. Sometimes I get on these weird self pep talks. Now to try to practice what I preach. I wish you lots of luck, but don't do anything that will make you feel worse. Bless you.
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Post by Becca on Jun 7, 2003 21:42:34 GMT -5
Yea thats the same with me, if i'm just sitting and not doing a physical activy - e.g. sport, running, i will pick. If I'mm watching tv I pick without noticing, i even pick and skool - which is embarrassing, i'm sure my friends hav noticed altho they've never said anything. Ladt nite we went out for dinner and i was picking during that whole 4 hours, and only stopped when my family looked @ me.
I started last yr - and here i've read about sum people who hav been picking for....18+ years, hopefully I will get ova it soon! I used to think I was ugly when i started picking would that having anything 2 do with it? And now when i look in the mirror I think I look ok - except for the big, round red spot that is very tender and sore. And all the other sores from picking.
This site is so helpful! ;D
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