Old member in relapse

[scarreddaisy]

Hello all,

I don't know if there are any familiar faces on here any more but I used to be a vigilant poster and member of this community. Then I met my husband and had two kids and i thought that I had beat it. Well, my youngest daughter is 9 months now and I have not been on birth control of any kind. My skin was glorious for my pregnancies but now is has blown out of proportion. I have done damage again and I am mad at myself. I even got a tattoo on my back as a reward to myself for letting my back heal... now, I am hiding my back and applying cover up in the places that show. I am very frustrated with myself. I am wondering since I was last on here.. many years ago.. what you all have learned in dealing with this picking problem. I need some advice before I throw away all my top except for my turtlenecks.

[Twitchygirl]

I know how you feel. Granted I'm a new member here, but I've tried to quit picking so many times. I just get so discouraged, because no matter how well I do, I always seem to fall back into the cycle. I hate how my body looks during bad times like I'm in now. It makes me wanna cry. My skin used to be so nice and now it's scared up. I wanna quit so bad. That's why I'm here. I think part of the reason I'm having such a hard time, is because there's no one at home that understands, and who can hold me responsible. If I stop picking, I feel like I need some sort of positive reinforcement to help keep me on track (though clear skin should be enough) but I have decided that my biggest weakness could become my greatest strength: i love to have my ego stroked. haha sounds very self-centered I know. But I really love submitting my writing and art onto sites like deviant art, just to show them off. I'm hoping maybe, the possibility to "brag" about how well I'm doing with my skin may be enough of an incentive to help me to kick the habit. Preying, of course helps too. I always try to remember that with God all things are possible (even quitting picking)

I look forward to hearing you "brag" about how you're not picking, too. You could try what I'm doing. Take a picture of my pick spots every 3 days, so I can go back and see how nice my skin looks when I leave it alone.