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[Sunny]

I think I can say that I have been pick-free since yesterday morning...so that's good. Except instead of picking at my face, I caught myself last night picking at my legs. I haven't done that in quite some time, and my legs are looking pretty nice. Maybe I started picking at my legs because I knew I told myself I wouldn't pick at my face? Anyway, so I guess when I say I won't pick for twenty-four hours, I have to specify that won't pick AT ALL, or else my mind will find some tiny loophole around it.

I did have a pimple that really wanted to come out this afternoon on my face...and at first I felt bad about it, but it was really evident, like, if I went out it public, I would have been scared that it would explode and they'd see it....so I had to take care of it. And I only did that one and walked away from the mirror before I got a chance to do any more damage.

It's a brand new day tomorrow, so that's good. I'll just start again, right? It's about not giving up, that's what I think. Just one day at a time.

[sunny]

It's definitely hard to stop for more than one day. For a couple days I was fine, and then after that I've caught myself picking again.

It's so frustrating. My boyfriend recommended something, and I think it might help me. He said everytime catch myself picking, or if I catch myself having a pick-session in front of the mirror, come out in the front room, and start painting. It'll definitely help me to express myself, get some stress out, and maybe help me to progress my artistic ability.

We'll see!

[ahmadha]

Sunny said:

I think I can say that I have been pick-free since yesterday morning...so that's good. Except instead of picking at my face, I caught myself last night picking at my legs. I haven't done that in quite some time, and my legs are looking pretty nice. Maybe I started picking at my legs because I knew I told myself I wouldn't pick at my face? Anyway, so I guess when I say I won't pick for twenty-four hours, I have to specify that won't pick AT ALL, or else my mind will find some tiny loophole around it.

I did have a pimple that really wanted to come out this afternoon on my face...and at first I felt bad about it, but it was really evident, like, if I went out it public, I would have been scared that it would explode and they'd see it....so I had to take care of it. And I only did that one and walked away from the mirror before I got a chance to do any more damage.

It's a brand new day tomorrow, so that's good. I'll just start again, right? It's about not giving up, that's what I think. Just one day at a time.