Stef's Journal...

[Stef (Incubabe)]

Alright. I have a LiveJournal, but I can't track my progress through there because I allow most of my friends to read it. So, I figure something here might help.

I'm hoping this deters me from picking; I can come post in here when I'm sitting in my room considering picking.

I realized I need something more than staying away from the mirrors because I don't even need mirrors to ravage my skin anymore. I'm leaving for VA Beach in a couple days. My skin looks awful. I was hoping to have stopped by now, but that hasn't happened. I plan to pick up some make-up, cover as much as I can, and just bear the heat for a week. The friends that I am going with, one knows about my picking, and the other knows but doesn't understand it completely. So, at least I won't be too uncomfortable, besides the heat.

Other than that, I spent about 2 months doing nothing but being online, so I gained about 10 pounds. That disgusts me. I've been working out non-stop the past week, and eating extremely well. So far I've lost about 2 1/2 pounds and I can noticed a difference. Thank god. I would have flipped if I went to VA Beach looking the way I did a week ago. I feel so much better and now I can focus on not picking.

So...the end...er...the beginning. :-)

-Stef

[amgoingtostop]

Hey Stef - good luck fighting the good fight! But as a general word of advice try not to wear make up whenever possible as you will only block up your pores which if you get spots will make it worse. If you really want to cover it up at least consider getting hold of some mineral cosmetics - its stuff that was originally designed for burn victims and those going through facial surgery etc to cover up imperfections and redness.

Its expensive but is non-reactive to the skin and some even have a built in sunscreen to them so you don't need to stick more stuff on your face. Have a look at it online and you will be suprised by what it can do.

[Stef (Incubabe)]

I don't have the cash for it.
The crap I use is non-comedogenic. I've done it before and it's all right. And it's only for a week.

Back to watching Storm Stories. LOL ;D

[Stef (Incubabe)]

Been in VA the past week. Haven't picked much. My friend kept a close eye on me. LOL So my arms are looking good. Hopefully I can keep them this way. *crosses fingers* I plan to keep myself occupied with diet and exercise. I'm looking to lose about 10 pounds. I put 10 on after prom and that sucks. lol Oh well. Hardcore exercise and good nutrition and I'll be all set again. :-)

[Stef (Incubabe)]

I have poison ivy and I want to die. Dear lord. It's awful. I told god, the lord, whomever, that if he made me stop itching I would never pick again.

So far still itchy, but I'm still never picking again.