megans life- one day at a time..

[megan]

so i figured id start a journal because 'its the cool thing to do'.. jk. im hoping it will work for me as it has for others.

i found this site a week ago, and after reading thru all of the tips and stories of how people are quitting, im happy to say that i have been pick-free for 6 days and thats a miracle.

i have been washing my face every nite and putting overnite acne cream all over my face and it is doing wonders. i was looking at sephora.com for skin lighteners cuz i heard that may work on my darker spots. im debating which one to try at the moment. ill keep ya posted on how that goes.

my husband has noticed the change in my skin and keeps telling me everyday how beautiful i am and how smooth and soft my skin is. that means a lot. makes me never want to touch my face again.

i am 9 months pregnant- my lil girl, emma leigh, is due in 40 days! i cant believe it. i am trying so hard to not pick between now and then and am hoping that will be the end of picking for me. i know everyone will be taking pictures of me in the delivery room and i most likely wont have makeup on, so i want my skin to look as good as possible. here's hoping.

emma leigh is the reason i have kicked it into high gear about wanting to quit. my mom is the reason i have been picking for the last 6 or 7 years and this nasty habit is something i dont want to pass on to emma. she doesnt deserve all of the feelings of lonliness and ugliness that i got and grew up with. i wont put her thru that.

okay well enough rambling on my first entry. im going to go do the dishes and steer clear of the bathroom. i find keeping the door closed when im not using it is helping. i just walk by with no urge to walk in and look in the mirror.

thanks for listening.

[stilltrying]

Hi Megan. Cool thing indeed! Congrats on the baby soon to come. My little one isn't so little anymore -- he's 12 months.

The first 3 months can be hard because of lack of sleep. Being tired was always a trigger for me. If I'm only a little tired, I would wash my arms (that's what I pick) and get to bed and usually make it. When I was super tired of course that's when I would pick for 30 minutes instead! If you tended to pick your face when tired, be aware of that.

Congrats also on the 6 days!

My kids are also part of why I'm working so hard to stop and stay pick free. I don't want my older son to ask why I have these marks, or what happened, and my baby will start swim lessons this summer, yikes.

With my older son, I can't believe I did this, but he had baby acne, and there were two spots that were super red with a big white lump. Just to say here - baby acne ALL goes away and I knew I should have left it alone. I didn't pick them, exactly, I used my finger nail to scrape at them. A little. I got the bumps out and now when I look really close at his right cheek I can see little pits, two of them. I hate myself when I see that, though I know they are small and he doesn't notice.

I hope labor goes well!

stilltrying