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Post by novabee on Feb 18, 2005 17:49:29 GMT -5
I've just started this group, but thought a journal might do me well (and something to do while I'm bored at work...) OK--so I'm 21 years old, and have a problem with acne. I've been on and off dermatological drugs---most recently on some form of penacillin and differen gel....it usually works, but my picking doesn't help matters. I woke up this morning picking my face. Don't know why....It was itching me I guess.... Came to the mirror and proceeded to pop a non-existant pimple which led to a largely inflamed wound on my left cheek...(Sexy) Covered myself with an inch of cover up and set off to work... At work I became very busy and opted not to bring my makeup w/ me as to curb picking. Did I mention that my New Year's resolution was to stop picking my face?! Well, that lasted longer than a few hours... Anyway, at work a bit ago I was bored and began picking so much I bleed...had to run off before my boss saw. Well, i put on some powder I discovered in my purse, but look like I have the mumps--just want to go home and sleep............ Well, at least it's Friday. I hope I have no more picking today...wish me luck.  |
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Post by novabee on Feb 18, 2005 20:56:06 GMT -5
Well, I just got home from work...thanks to Spring for writing me--so far no one really has. Anyway, I came in and played with my little dog Minnie and started to watch something on TV...after a little while I felt guilty for watching TV and decided to go upstairs and be productive---this led me into my bathroom where I proceeded to pick at a scab that was bothering me  ...Not fun. But I put my Caladryl Lotion on and it feels better already. Once I washed my face I realized how much damage I have done to myself--I have scars and red marks lined along my cheeks and forehead at the moment with three little pimples just waiting to be picked ( I am trying to resist the urge...) I turned off some of the light bulbs in the bathroom and that made me look a bit better, so hopefully it will curb my pickings in the mirror... Do you guys realize how much of our lives we waste picking our skin? I have picked about 1-2 hours almost every day for the past ten years or so.....add that up, that's alot of wasted free time! Perhaps I need a new hobby....hmmm.
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Post by novabee on Feb 19, 2005 19:55:33 GMT -5
Well, I went to bed last nite after a bout of massive sking picking---I was watching Cold Mountain (really sad movie) and before I knew it I had blood on my fingers....yikes. I went to bed feeling ugly and woke up looking awful...I had scabs all over my face and had to quickly put on makeup so my bf wouldn't see.... I did really well today, except when I had to do my hw and got stressed out---picked at most of the scabs and opened wounds Oh, well---hopefully I can get through the rest of the day w/o picking! all i have is hope......
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Post by shihui as guest on Feb 19, 2005 22:52:50 GMT -5
hi lindsey! thanks for your post in my journal! im sorry it took me this long to get to yours yea..it's sad to think of how much time has been wasted on picking. many times i would pick while i do work. and this would make me end up spending so much time on a simple assignment [which i could have easily completed in less than an hr perhaps, w/o picking]. i've noticed that you pick subconsciously at times. like the time when you watched Cold Mountain. maybe you should try wearing gloves around your house? it may help you stop such times when you pick without knowing. just to let you know, i pick when i get stressed too. especially when i'm doing hw...i think the anxiety level just seems to rise. or maybe it's because my brain has this automatic reaction to pick when i think hard. i don't really know which reason causes me to pick when doing hw...maybe it's a combination of both. i believe that with the help of this board for support, you will certainly reduce the damage caused by daily picking, as well as the time spent on it. and eventually, you'll curb this obsession.  wishing you luck for the rest of the day or the day to come [sorry, have no idea what time it is there]. |
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Post by sioned on Feb 22, 2005 5:37:47 GMT -5
Hi Lindsay,
How you doing? Hope your weekend was ok and you didn't pick too much.
I know what you mean about the amount of time we waste picking - it scares me to death. I don't ever want to try and add up the time I've wasted. I'm sure it would be a good few years of my life in total! I also feel permanently guilty about it - aagghh!
well, I think one thing about everyone on here is that we all have hope! otherwise we couldn't keep going like we do. we have to hope that we will be able to stop doing this to ourselves, and I think that with the support and help we can all give each other, we believe we can stop!
Hope you find lots of support here.
Sioned xx
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...Not fun. But I put my Caladryl Lotion on and it feels better already.