Spring Angel's ZT Journal and Prayer

[Spring Angel]

Hi,

I am Spring Angel and I would like to start a Zero Tolerance life. No picking at anything. In conjunction with working the 12 steps of OSPA, Obsessive Skin Pickers Anonymous, I hope this goal, and this journal, will be an important step in my recovery, because although my face is significantly healed as a result of working the steps on it, I have touched it and have had slips. I want to be abstinant from picking, and pray :

"God I pray that you will remove my compulsion and obsession to pick, that victory over skin picking might bear witness to those I might help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy way of life, May I do Thy will always.

So I think I'll check in here in the mornings, say my daily prayer, then check in in the evening, say my evening prayer and report my progress, (fourth step inventory, Step 10, Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it), and then I'll do my meditation before I go to sleep.

So, to all you here at ZT, wish me luck, and I will add you to my prayers for recovery and success. I admire your efforts.

Here I go.....

luv,

Spring

[Spring Angel]

Good Morning,

For my first ZT day I want to say this prayer:

God, help me to achieve my goal today, hands off completely, and remove the compulsion from me as you have removed the obsession to drink for the last 10 years. May I do thy will, in the hopes that my success will give hope to others that may need help for their problem as well. Help me to heal inside that my outsides may reflect my insides. And I want to ask you to provide strength and healing to my other ZT friends toward their goal as well.

I hope to have a really good day today, and am confident that I will check in tonite with successful news to report. The morning is my hardest time, so doing this instead should help me stop the hand to face thing that I do when I am at my most vulnerable, in the early morning.

Spring Angel

[Hecate]

Hi Spring Angel,

Hope you have a great day. :)The 12 step programe seems to be working well for you & I'm positive that you'll be succesful in doing ZT for today.

[Spring Angel]

Thank you Hecate. Well, heck, this thing is HARD. I have a real hand to face thing going, a with a few spots still peeling, its very hard to keep my hands off. But my face looks clear, for all practical purposes, so I haven't done any damage, just peeled two flakes today and one yesterday. But that's not ZT! So I will say my prayer again. I think as the peely areas peel themselves off it will get easier. I may consider getting a more moisterizing makeup or put moisterizer on under my makeup so things feel soft if I do put my hand up. God, I do it a hundred times a day.

So to you successful ZTers, Kudos to you, and may I join your ranks soon as a success story. Still, I am delighted to have quit picking. My therapist is very very proud of me. And guess what, a recruiter called today with a job that could double my salary! It would be like winning the lottery! So wish me luck on that !

Had a good good day, peelies or no. I am happy today

luv,

Spring

God, please remove from me my compulsion and obsessionn to pick that my victory over my difficulty might bear witness to those I might serve of thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy way of Life, May I do Thy will always.

S.