need a ZT partner

[switchbox]

hey. i have been picking for about 10 years. half of my life. i have covered my scars up so well for so long. all of my friends...my boyfriend. none of them know. but the secrets are driving me insane. i want to stop. i want to heal. i want so much that my wanting is almost unbearable. i have told one person in my life. and that one person discussed my problem with her boss. see? the one person i tell can't even keep a secret. it's because she doesn't know...will never know. i have never met another picker. and to look at me, you would never be able to tell that i am one anyway. i'm normal -- i go out, i party, i have friends. but inside -- i'm anorexic, i have ADD, i've been raped. how do i keep both parts of my life running? how do i let them co-exist? they are both me, as much as i would like to deny. i NEED a ZT partner. Badly. i need to stop. but i don't know how. and i don't know how i will be able to deal with my life if i can't.

[R]

hey
ill be ur zt partner.
I have things in common wiht u but probably not as bad. i am normal too, i go out every weekend, study, have friends, do sports.... but then this one thing changes me... my personlity adn look in my eyes afterwards is distant n scary... i have been told.. when i am unbalanced, my life is too and i afffect my family etc... i want to stop.. so badly.. i guess my scars rnt that bad n my skin isnt that bad.. i cover it.. n i do have red marks.. but i have seen worse.. so im ok wiht that.. but still the day after a bad night, i look adn feel terrible. i also used to be anorexic.. but got help n am now over it. I am getting counceling for everythign and hoping to improve. We can do this. just think positively. i have not been positive before but now i am writign down everythign that is positive and ignorign all thats negative. Just one tip.
We can stop this- but it will take time.
DAY ONE TOMORROW- hope u join me counting and tell me how everythign is going.
reflection