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[double r]

Well, I wrote a long post and lost it:(
Dare I try again?
My point was...I'm an older woman who has struggled with this for years!! My daughter has a picking problem too:( I often wonder if she learned it from me, or if it's somehow inherited. I remember my mom also picked from time to time.
It's gotten to the point where this is REALLY interferring with my life. I'm so self conscious of my face...mostly my chin. I struggle daily with it.

I work under fluorescent lights most of the day. It can be so difficult. I talk with my hand hiding my chin:( I know people know what I'm doing. I still do it.

I just haven't found a way to quit!

So, maybe if I join your team, I can learn new ways...instead of my hand automatically going to my face. Once I feel something, I'm toast. Maddening.

I'm on effexor. I wonder if anyone else is on this med? I sometimes think that it exacerbates this picking. I can't get the courage to ask my doc. Shame I guess.

I've been through a lot in my 40 some years....and have conquered many things, smoking for one...once I put my mind to something, I can do it. I just need to learn new skills.

So, I'll give this a shot.

Will someone join me?

Tomorrow will be day one since I'm pretty bad tonight.

Wish me luck.

Thanks for being here and listening!!

RR

[double r]

I thought there'd be a response or two....oh well.

I did pretty darn well today.
I have a lot of temptations just waiting there on my chin.
I touched one, but not too much or too long. sickening habit.
I'm using a "worry stone" to keep my hands busy.
RR

[hoppe]

Hi RR

Welcome to the board!

I am sorry to hear that you have been going through this for years. It is such a life-interfering habit. Coming here and admitting your problem can be your first step on the way to recovery!

By the way, I can totally relate to your problem with fluorescent light. I have also been working under fluorescent lights, and it was killing me. If I could decide, fluorescent light would not exist in this world...... (well, actually if I had that kind of power, I would make CSP non-existent..... ;D)

I understand your disappointment that nobody responded to your first post. However, if you want response it is better to post on the Support Board. Under Team ZT people mostly keep a journal, where only they post, or they share the journal with one or multipe ZT partner(s). If you want a ZT partner, it is easier to find her/him on the Support Board. That is where most people post/read/respond.

hoppe

[double R]

Thanks Hoppe!!

[rr]

I think I'm doing much better!
I can't say that I've had a pick free day yet...but, I'm very aware of when my hands go to my face.
It just drives me nuts to feel a bump! Hate it Hate it Hate it!
What a difference it makes though to nut mess with my face! Jeesh.
I think it's a self sabatoge (sp) thing going on....like I don't *want* to look my best. Why would that be?
Why would I want to hold my hand over my chin when I have to talk to someone up close?? I hate doing that!

[scarred]

Wow!! I just found this site and I can't believe all of the people out there who are like me.

Well, I do have to say that I am a recovered alcoholic/drug addict. My picking started when I was using drugs. I could have sworn something was under my skin and it HAD to come out!!!! Any ways, I stopped using but the scars remain. I still wear long sleeves in the summer time. I picked my skin to the point that I have hypertrophic(raised,red) scars. I pulled all my scabs off (stone, cold, sober) leaving white scars.

This has been going on for 7 years. I am now 28. I finally gave up basing my staying sober on if the doctors could heal me. But, I am still hopeful that one day I will not have to wear long sleeves. And I don't now, it is just the guilt and shame of what I did to myself.

I always blamed my picking on my drug use but, I do still do it it's just not as bad. It's when I get a pimple on my face and I squeeze it until it looks worse than before. So this problem is not just due to drugs.

Anyways, what I'm dealing with now it the wreckage of my past. It's nice to see that others are the same. I would like to hear from those who have used different treatments on existing scars, their costs, and how it worked.

God bless us all!!!!