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Post by Stef (Incubabe) on Mar 11, 2004 23:34:08 GMT -5
It's really bothering me that I might no be able to go to Prom this year so, I'm really trying so hard to just stop. I'm making Ryan force me to promise him that I won't pick. I've targeted the exact times when I'm most vulnerable to picking so, now I'm able to be aware of when it's coming, and fight it. My longest no-pick streak this month was 4 days. So, now I'm trying to go for 5 straight days. Then 6 and so on. I'm really excited. I might finally beat this. Ryan is so supportive and he really stuck it to me that I have to suck it up and do something about it or live with it for the rest of my life. I needed a good, harsh reality check, and it was best that it come from him. I'm ready to get over this now. I'm really ready. I'm talking myself through my simple night-time activities and such, just to make sure that I do what I'm supposed to and nothing more. I'll keep you guys posted from time to time. I'm sorry I'm not around much to give back all the support but school and the play have really got me tied down. I'll try to come on as often as possible but even as I type I should be showered and in bed. I hope you are all doing well. If anyone wants to talk you can email me at wishythewishgivr@aol.com or IM me on Incubabe1587. Bye guys! Best of luck to everyone. Keep fighting!
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Lucy
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Post by Lucy on Mar 12, 2004 0:36:04 GMT -5
That's how I am!!! Keep it up babe. You will get over it. I am so determined and this week I went 4 days without but had a minor pick on Wednesday. My inspiration is Prom too. Just I don't have a boyfriend. There's this vintage dress, kind of 50's like, that I want to go in. I am now starting tomorrow to lose weight for it too. Good luck babe  |
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Post by Kat on Mar 15, 2004 14:39:44 GMT -5
I dont have anything to go for at the moment  I ruined my origional aim - because my boyfriend would be disgusted if he knew - by telling him and him wanting so much to help me get through it! ARGH! What really annoys me about my area is that if i dont pick at all, i can't breath. It's a really, really stupid, stupid situation. I MAY have cleared one nostril out though, by concentrating on my mouth and the other - it hasn't bled for a day now, which means there may be no scabs left! Yahoo! but i can't sort the other out by ignoring it, because i can't! And blowing my nose doesn't help because it blows the scab out - i may as well have picked it. If only i had stuck with normal areas |
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Post by Stef (Incubabe) on Mar 16, 2004 17:05:08 GMT -5
I didn't make 5 days, but I did make 4, so I'm content. I got stuck in that dead tired zone last night and just couldn't stop myself until I thought about how disappointed I would be in the morning. To my surprise, I don't feel that bad about it. Mostly because I stopped myself (an hour later, but still) and because it doesn't look that bad. I'm going to try for 5 again. It's hard because it almost feels like a withdrawl (not that I've felt one but I've heard...). I get anxiety that I've never felt before and I'm on edge and moody. The little things stress me out and it takes twice the strength and engery to pull my focus to the things that need my attention. I fear my school work and social life may begin to suffer, but at the cost of having my old skin back, it's worth it. I'd rather be happy than pulling a 4.0, and as long as I have my Ryan by my side, I'm happy.
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