i got the bad thought again, i stopped

[anon,irresp.]

IRRATIONAL, NEGATIVE, DESTRUCTIVE, PERSONALLY, EVEN WORSE TO FRIENDS, FAMILY, ANYONE IN CONTACT WITH ME.

i got the idea that it is ok
ok to further touch my wound
i pressed hard with my fingers against the
hard crust of my very large wound
i pressed and pressed as some minute ellow woozing fluid came out
i felt as if what i was doing had a reason
as if i was rignt in further touching
i got something out


RATIONAL

I LET MY BODY HEAL

I STAY CONSCIOUS OF MY FEELINGS AND WRITE TEM DOWN

i have the right to be sober, NOT MATTER WHAT *no matter what my thoughts are, *never follow my own intuition regarding my looking or touching my skin.

my body is beautiful, i want to take care of it

i deserve to come into the inhricance of my own beauty

life is safe (my activity on my own skin is not)

i accept myslef exactly how and who i am today

i am willing to become increasinlty more gentle and loving to myself

i joyfully say NO NO NONONONONNO
NO NO NO

i have survived

i deserve to be the woman i am

my humor is a sign of my recovery

if at first i don't sucded, i lower my expectations