desesperating...

[Teresa =)]

hi how r u all? i hope ur pick is doing better than me .. is not too bad but i really fault the zt and i just leaft it and dotn redo it agian... dunno but i want to heal really cause ..well i want to go to the beach so hard.... my face is my biggest prob... and just makeup is like my best friend... i absolutly hate it evne i odnt feel nothing anymore.... my grandpa who notice i pick my face was happy cause he say i look muvh better and improve.. well he is right but not as good as i want.. i hate to come to my home and see my dad started to look at me and telling me if i am good or not.. is nice to tell i am good.. but i hate when he say to me i messed if i was so good.. damn... i hate so feel guilty and dont talk to pple looking at their eyes... cause well.. i feel guilty and i fell like they are going to check me out or whatever.. buahh... well that was much a lot before now i think i look ppple eyes.. well whatever... i hate to not feel nothing when i am picking... not even bad... i hate that... cause i should feel bad as i used to be.. but i really myabe i just in the cluds again!!!
anyway also my house has been a mess... my dad and mom were fighting and wanted to separated me and my sister... was horrible and schoking my sister and me end crying all night.... was sad, very very sad,, they say they will go to court and .. bla, bla is sad what pple can do with words how much they can hurt... i am not a kid anyomre but this things affected me like i was 5 years old... and i hate it...i guess i will have too life along for a rest of peace... but i am so scared...
anyway... for all perosnal.. this week has been good my grades were very good and i fell so happy about that.... the studies really served... also i am doing more excerisse and it feels good....and i will travle next wekk ... celbrating halloween... will be good...
anyway i rally dont have much more to said..take care all
Teresa

[Canuck]

Teresa,

I'm sorry that you have been having a tough time! I, too, have not been doing as well as I would have liked. I really performed well for my first two weeks, but seemed to have fallen off of the bandwagon. I've just got back on track these last few days.

Seems to me that we'd all have an easier time stopping picking if we didn't have to deal with all of the external distractions/temptations that drag us into picking in the first place. Last weekend with my family, I know, triggered a lot for me.

Have a good Halloween! And congratulations on the good grades!

[rabbitmoon]

hey teresa! i know exactly what you're going through with your family. things like that can be really terrifying. i hate to hear all that. i dont know how to tell you how many times i stayed up half the night as a kid listening to screaming and threats. it will be okay. even though its bad now. everything will get better even if your parents splitting up has to happen for it to get better. we're here for you. love, rabbitmoon...