day one

[tif]

not a single pick today I am so happy with myself. I am very worried about tomorrow because the first day is always the easiest and then it all goes down hill. I like go through withdrawal and sometimes I even get the shakes and they go away when I pick it is really wierd. what helped me the most today is that I didnt even look at my skin so I dont even know its condition right now and I dont care cuz it doesnt matter what matters is that I didnt pick and I think I am finally getting that. It is not how my skin looks that I need to focus on because as soon as I start to think about it I get so depressed and end up picking. I hope everyone is doing good this week and I am going to get a good night rest so I have energy to stand strong tomorrow. Tif

[Carree]

Tif-

Great Job Count your successes, it doesn't have to go down hill from here. If you have a relapse just know that you can do it, you have already had one pick free day now go for two!!!

Carree

[Tif]

well amazingly isnt hasnt been all down hill I have made it to day 4 and I am pretty confident now that I can do this my skin is looking much better too. the thing that helps me is by just not looking at it and I have been staying busy I have been planning my days where I am gone from morning to night and then I just pass out when I get home. the one thing I do find myself doing alot of though is feeling my skin I dont even realize it its so wierd and then all of a sudden I realize what I am doing and I wonder how long I have been feeling my back for or my chest or face. it drives me crazy becuase I dont even realize I am doing it. I cant constantly focus on not doing this though because I have to focus on reading or what ever I am doing. oh well I hope everyone is doing good with ZT and I firmly believe that this is the only way to beat this thing.