Post by Canuck on Oct 19, 2003 17:14:40 GMT -5
...all I know is that I'm past the two week marker.
I'm concerned with the amount of picking that I'm doing. It's little, insignificant. A pick or two per day. But it's breaking ZT. So I'm not sure if I should start over, or try to finish off these next two weeks or what. Could I start a AZT (almost zero tolerance) group?
I'm really, really close...
The thing that remains to help me the most is my online journal. I was at my mom and dad's house on Friday (I live away at college) and they were seriously pissing me off. I think that posting in my journal was the only thing that kept me from going into the bathroom and taking my agression out on my face.
I notice that I get more angry now that I'm going (attempting, at least) the ZT thing. It must be because I'm not relieving so much stress through gouging at my skin. The journaling helps trendously, and I feel like I've been crying a lot...I need to get the stress out somehow, I guess.
That's about it. I'm counting on this week to be my most successful yet. I have a major incentive coming in the form of my best friend, who is visiting from out-of-state starting a week from Tuesday.
I hope all is well, everybody. I think of you daily!
Much love.
I'm concerned with the amount of picking that I'm doing. It's little, insignificant. A pick or two per day. But it's breaking ZT. So I'm not sure if I should start over, or try to finish off these next two weeks or what. Could I start a AZT (almost zero tolerance) group?
I'm really, really close...The thing that remains to help me the most is my online journal. I was at my mom and dad's house on Friday (I live away at college) and they were seriously pissing me off. I think that posting in my journal was the only thing that kept me from going into the bathroom and taking my agression out on my face.
I notice that I get more angry now that I'm going (attempting, at least) the ZT thing. It must be because I'm not relieving so much stress through gouging at my skin. The journaling helps trendously, and I feel like I've been crying a lot...I need to get the stress out somehow, I guess.
That's about it. I'm counting on this week to be my most successful yet. I have a major incentive coming in the form of my best friend, who is visiting from out-of-state starting a week from Tuesday.
I hope all is well, everybody. I think of you daily!
Much love.
Well for me, the insignificant picking I DID do, was still SO much less than before I started ZT, that I'm going to consider it a plus day. Today is day 5 for me and I'm really feeling pretty good about myself. My spots have become NON pickable now. They are flat and there's nothing to pull or pick at. Now my goal is to work on getting the scars faded. I really think for the most part, the scars will never dispappear entirely, but hopefully I can get them to fade a bit.