long time no post

[scarreddaisy]

WEll I havent been on here for quite some time, probably over a year and a half. I think that is due to the fact that I am in a relationship now ( he is aware of my problem and respects it) and that I am too embarrassed to go on here and actually acknowledge this problem like I did before ( since he lives with me in the same house now I dont want him to peer over and read what I am writing). I am pregnant now which I had hopedwould slow some of this down. My pimples are fewer so there is less to pick, but my bottom side which I've tormented since childhood is still a mess. I am acutally 1 day over due with my pregnancy and am still mad at myself for not letting it heal because I know that in those hospital gowns my scabbed tush is going to be oh so exposed.

I dont recognize any of the posters in the forum today, it has been such a long time I am sure that the people I used to talk with are not around any more. I look forward to getting back into this community. I know that I want to actively try again with my not picking because I do not want my son to be to develop this bad habit of mine. So Hello everyone, nice to meet you, I've been with this site for a long time and hopefully you have found are finding the same comforts in it that I do/did.

[playinwitfire]

Hiya, I remember you scarreddaisy! (who are you is probs what your thinking!) well just saying i remember your alias! I havn't been on here in a long time either. Some of the long term posters are still around I think. I can never let anything heal and I hate that! But it is good that there is less for you to pick, that always helps keep the temptation away. all the best with the pregnancy etc!

Take care, Jess

[scarreddaisy]

Hey! Glad to hear that you are still around. Thanks for the wishes of good luck. Hopefully now that I am back on the site I can make some headway with this stupid disorder ( ugg I hate that word).

[cushion]

hello,i really wanted to reply to you because i had a baby 9 months ago.

the pregnancy was fine and infact my skin improved due to hormonal changes, but of course i still picked at nothing.

i remember in the last few months i was determined to pick as little as possible, i was more worried about the state of my skin than actually giving birth, for a few reasons-

i didnt want to have huge pimples that could end up taking over my whole face after a long labor,

i was worried what the Dr's and nurses would think of me ( they would think i was disgusting),

and i wanted to look perfect in the first photos taken after birth.(yeah right!)

looking back now, i really think I'm utterly mad to have been more concerned about my skin than the birthing process.

i was overdue by 13 days,being in hospital for 4 days before was the only reason my skin looked OK.

hope all is well with you and baby