Post by EvilKitty on Apr 18, 2005 16:43:21 GMT -5
Does anyone here have both? I've had both for about the same amount of time, though with csp there were a few years I didn't do anything.
When I was younger, around 9 years old (I'm 17 now), I would pull my eyelashes out. Then a year or two later I started to pull the hair on my scalp instead. For a while I thought I was getting better, now I think it's just getting worse. I don't necessarily have bald spots like I used to. Instead of trying to pull the whole strand out, I pull off the damaged ends of my hair. My hair is EXTREMELY damaged from doing this now. Almost every hair on my head has a split or dead end. All of it is a different length.
I'm not sure when I started the csp thing. I remember when I was younger I'd pick at my scalp, leaving scabs. I stopped doing that years ago, but now I pick everywhere else on my body. I guess it started back up again when my ex boyfriend came to visit. He had a blackhead he wanted me to get rid of for him, so I did. Then I wanted to do more and more and more. After he left to go back home, I started doing it to myself. I haven't stopped since.
I'm trying so hard to quit both right now. Being like this makes me never want to leave the house, or my room. I've missed so much school. I also have a weight problem, which makes it even worse. I'm always so ashamed of myself for the way I am.
I guess I'm doing good with not picking my face lately. I haven't done it for about 4 days and I think my complexion has gotten better. But I still pick at my arms and legs.
Trich is a different story.. I can't freaking stop. I'm ALWAYS pulling my hair. Doesn't matter what I'm doing. I feel like it's never going to go the hell away.
I'm sure all of you know how I feel, even if you don't have both conditions. I hate how people tell me "then just stop already." I wish it was that easy. I'd rather have to quit smoking than do this. You can get away from cigarettes, you can never get away from yourself.
Sorry about the long post.. guess I'm trying to vent here. I also have a question for those who know anything about trich - after pulling your hair out for a number of years, will your hair in certain areas eventually just stop growing? I used to pull my hair on the sides of my head a lot, and now the hair there is a lot thinner. I really miss my old hair and skin. I had the tiniest pores, even up close you couldn't see them. And my hair was thick, long, and curly. *Sigh*
When I was younger, around 9 years old (I'm 17 now), I would pull my eyelashes out. Then a year or two later I started to pull the hair on my scalp instead. For a while I thought I was getting better, now I think it's just getting worse. I don't necessarily have bald spots like I used to. Instead of trying to pull the whole strand out, I pull off the damaged ends of my hair. My hair is EXTREMELY damaged from doing this now. Almost every hair on my head has a split or dead end. All of it is a different length.
I'm not sure when I started the csp thing. I remember when I was younger I'd pick at my scalp, leaving scabs. I stopped doing that years ago, but now I pick everywhere else on my body. I guess it started back up again when my ex boyfriend came to visit. He had a blackhead he wanted me to get rid of for him, so I did. Then I wanted to do more and more and more. After he left to go back home, I started doing it to myself. I haven't stopped since.
I'm trying so hard to quit both right now. Being like this makes me never want to leave the house, or my room. I've missed so much school. I also have a weight problem, which makes it even worse. I'm always so ashamed of myself for the way I am.
I guess I'm doing good with not picking my face lately. I haven't done it for about 4 days and I think my complexion has gotten better. But I still pick at my arms and legs.
Trich is a different story.. I can't freaking stop. I'm ALWAYS pulling my hair. Doesn't matter what I'm doing. I feel like it's never going to go the hell away.
I'm sure all of you know how I feel, even if you don't have both conditions. I hate how people tell me "then just stop already." I wish it was that easy. I'd rather have to quit smoking than do this. You can get away from cigarettes, you can never get away from yourself.
Sorry about the long post.. guess I'm trying to vent here. I also have a question for those who know anything about trich - after pulling your hair out for a number of years, will your hair in certain areas eventually just stop growing? I used to pull my hair on the sides of my head a lot, and now the hair there is a lot thinner. I really miss my old hair and skin. I had the tiniest pores, even up close you couldn't see them. And my hair was thick, long, and curly. *Sigh*