Ya know its bad....

[myperfectgnome]

First let me say that I almost went 24 hours without picking. Maybe because the whole house is sick and I have been too busy but compared to the last few months its a good start. I think I get worse when I am stressed. It helps me zone out. Thankfully I just left a very stressful job and hope that it will reduce my need to pick somewhat. I know the last few months my boss was beginning to wonder. I would keep an old nametag (the kind with the safety pin backing) sitting between my wrists and the keyboard at all times. Most of the time there were little pieces of skin all over the desk. Now, I am back to restuarant work and I know that will be a little stressful and of course dry my hands out really bad but I am taking it one day at a time.

This morning on my way to work I noticed some skin and began picking. I actually stopped myself a lot and am proud of this step. Baby steps. It wasn't until this evening that I realized something. You know its bad when you see other people's skin and want to pick it. God, I know this sounds gross but its how bad I have gotten. My ex-husband would let me pick the skin off of his feet (I do my own too...not as bad as when I was little). Tonight there was a guy here who trying to explain my mothers life insurance policy to me and the whole time all I could think was, I wish he would pick that one little spot off of his thumb. Not that I really wanted to do it for him but it made me want to pick. UGH

I know this is going to be hard but I am so ready to stop this!

[sunshinefunk]

I know what you mean about other people. They are trying to talk about something important but all's you notice is the blackhead that looks so perfect to pop. That is pretty gross, but hey, I'm not going to stress unless I reach over and actually do it!

-sunshine

[Supervixen]

I know what you mean about other people. They are trying to talk about something important but all's you notice is the blackhead that looks so perfect to pop. That is pretty gross, but hey, I'm not going to stress unless I reach over and actually do it!

I am quite disgusting -
I actually do squeeze out all my partner's blackheads. He knows I have a problem picking my skin so I've convinced him if he lets me pick his skin then he is helping me to stop picking mine! He only lets me do it about once a week though...

[sunshinefunk]

Supervixen,
That's not that bad. I ask my guy if I can squeeze some on his back, too. He let's me sometimes, but I know I hurt him because I do it so hard. In my last post, I was talking about co-workers, friends, and even strangers having big blackheads.

This guy I used to work with had this obnoxious dark, large blackhead in his ear. Oh man, did I want to get my hands on that thing and watch it come out. But, that would have been ackward and wrong, so I didn't.

I'm glad your boyfriend is helping you. Mine is trying to help me, too. Aren't they great?
-sunshine-

[lorieann75]

I know EXACTLY how you feel I used to become grossed out by my own thoughts regarding my ex-husband's back (he had severe acne there) and my overwhelming NEED to either "do something about it" myself, or atleast have HIM address it. It literally grossed me out, and I wanted it "fixed".

My now fiance also has problems with breakouts on his back and shoulders primarily. I have asked him a few times not to "trigger" me, by picking at them infront of me- because I honestly can't deal with it lol. I just want to "fix" him too. It's awful! Bad enough my own skin is damaged by my compulsion.. now I want to "fix" the public at large haha.