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Post by lorieann75 on Apr 22, 2005 11:12:44 GMT -5
I do the same thing myself blondie. When in the "cycle" of picking, I tend to repeat negative thoughts about myself in my mind such as "Whats the point anyway? You already look like hell.." and "You deserve the scars, they are outward signs of your failures.." blah blah. This however, is not just my OCD but a combination of that along with severe depression. I know this as a fact, but it doesn't make "those days" any easier to get through. So far however, I've ALWAYS put my faith in the fact that the next morning I never fail to find a reason to keep going, keep fighting, and keep looking for that silver lining. Thus far, in 29 yrs of life- it's never failed to appear yet  |
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Post by pinto123 on May 7, 2005 0:16:41 GMT -5
very interesting thread; i see parts of myself in your posts; it has been suggested by some that people who hurt themselves, in any # of ways, are committing 'fractional suicides'. we punish ourselves but only go part way there. for whatever reason we don't get the full job done, so to speak. it was so sad yet so accurate to read what someone else said as the picking being an outer manifestation of inner turmoil. 'what's the point' thoughts are often with me, for the record.
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Post by pookadot on May 7, 2005 14:05:49 GMT -5
Iv'e noticed i have bad thoughts more then what i used to as the picking is depressing me even more. I wouldn't say im suicidal because im to much of a wimp to really hurt myself but i sometimes think like 'god i wish something bad would happen to me just to stop me from picking' and when i pick alot of spots i think 'whats the point i might as well carry on picking ive already picked loads' but then i regret it again because ive made further damage to my skin. About a month ago or more i got really bad one day and thought no one cared and my life is never going to get better and i took scissors to my wrists but only scratched the surface i couldn't press deep as i didn't want the pain, but looking back i can't belive i done that and how the picking has made me think of such things i was also on my period at the time and get really bad at that kind of time. But ive just gone and picked today really bad and i get so angry at myself and just wish something would happenn to make it all stop i don't want to keep living like this but i loose these feelings once my face feels better again and as i forget how bad i can get after picking i end up picking again.
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Post by Froglet on May 7, 2005 16:29:24 GMT -5
My god, periods are wicked wicked things! Not only do they bring us lovely cramps etc, but a fresh crop of spots ready for harvesting! And the crazy lady behaviour! I could have my own genie granting me perfect skin and body and Id still be crying over some imaginary thing that is going wrong with my life!
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Post by FrankieT on May 16, 2005 17:41:51 GMT -5
I feel lucky reading all your responses! I think i can honestly say that i've never seriously considered suicide - once after one of my (ex)friends told me that she was going to kill herself, i wondered what it would be like and the thought scared me so much i thought "i'm never going to do that". i'm an optimist too, and i think that even if my face looks really really bad that one day i WILL manage to let it heal itself and not do anything to it again. Have to say though, good luck to all of us trying to get over this! Just remember it'll only be a temporary problem - we'll win through eventually!
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Post by Amy Jo on Feb 24, 2006 19:59:12 GMT -5
Just wanted to write that its comforting to see that I'm not alone in this problem!!
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