Post by nina12347 on Mar 28, 2005 15:24:05 GMT -5
hey everyone
sorry i havent posted in quite a while,my picking had slowed down til about a week ago when i suddenly slipped bk in 2 the viscious cycle,,,,oh how i h8 it ,,,but ive told my self if ive healed once im SURE i will again,,hehe i wish i could say that and know i wasn't gona say it again and again. im tryna figure out why i started picking again,,might have been the stress of having to finish all my coursework for school,,breakin it off with my b/f(it was my choice so probably not),pms may have triggerd it,im having reallly bad mood swings at the moment theyre crazy,,its lke im watchin myself shoutin and snappin at people that i don't wana shout and snap at ,,but i can't stop it!i tend 2 pick more when im tired also and 2day i have picked on a few occasions ,and i feel knackerd also ,,does anyfind picking tiring ?i do ,,metaly and phyisically ,,,must just b the emotional stress wearing dwn the body.I feel so guilty for not posting 2 any ones threads recently and offering my support ,but from now on im gona make sure i do regularly:).i start my gym membership 2moro so hopfully that will get sum of those ole endorphines a-flowing. i just watched 'calamity jane' which cheered me up a hell of a lot,singin along n evrythin
!i think the problem with my picking is ,,,i need sumthin energetic 2 do to get out all my anger n frustration insted of hackin at my skin and shoutin and meh,,,,i used 2 do kick boxing which released,hmmm i think i shud invest in a punch bag:)maybe it will release sum pent up anger.does anyone else get the feeling they dont really know the real them because with picking i dont want 2 do it ,,,but i do and with my othre ocd compulsions ,,i dont wanna do em but i do,,makes me feel so outa control n like ther is 2 me's,a really positive and a really negative,,,,
just realised that post didnt really have a meaning ,,,sorry ,,oh well ,talk 2 you all soon cya
nina x
sorry i havent posted in quite a while,my picking had slowed down til about a week ago when i suddenly slipped bk in 2 the viscious cycle,,,,oh how i h8 it ,,,but ive told my self if ive healed once im SURE i will again,,hehe i wish i could say that and know i wasn't gona say it again and again. im tryna figure out why i started picking again,,might have been the stress of having to finish all my coursework for school,,breakin it off with my b/f(it was my choice so probably not),pms may have triggerd it,im having reallly bad mood swings at the moment theyre crazy,,its lke im watchin myself shoutin and snappin at people that i don't wana shout and snap at ,,but i can't stop it!i tend 2 pick more when im tired also and 2day i have picked on a few occasions ,and i feel knackerd also ,,does anyfind picking tiring ?i do ,,metaly and phyisically ,,,must just b the emotional stress wearing dwn the body.I feel so guilty for not posting 2 any ones threads recently and offering my support ,but from now on im gona make sure i do regularly:).i start my gym membership 2moro so hopfully that will get sum of those ole endorphines a-flowing. i just watched 'calamity jane' which cheered me up a hell of a lot,singin along n evrythin
!i think the problem with my picking is ,,,i need sumthin energetic 2 do to get out all my anger n frustration insted of hackin at my skin and shoutin and meh,,,,i used 2 do kick boxing which released,hmmm i think i shud invest in a punch bag:)maybe it will release sum pent up anger.does anyone else get the feeling they dont really know the real them because with picking i dont want 2 do it ,,,but i do and with my othre ocd compulsions ,,i dont wanna do em but i do,,makes me feel so outa control n like ther is 2 me's,a really positive and a really negative,,,,just realised that post didnt really have a meaning ,,,sorry ,,oh well ,talk 2 you all soon cya
nina x
