Please help, im doing all i can!

[Bit Upset]

hey everyone, im fifteen and its my birthday tomorrow. i have picked my face to within an inch of its life, i really wish i could get a photo on here to show u all. All my mum said was that i looked like id been in a car accident. ive been putting vitamin e on it for a day or so but have noticed no improvment. i jsut want it to be better so bad, i have been picking for years and its ruining my life, i think im gonna cancel my party because i cant stnad the thought of so many people looking and talking to me when im in this state, i had been non pikcing for about 2 months and then it just came back. I was on citroflem?? the anti depressent, i cam of this, could this be anything to do with why im going back to pikcing?? please please help a very VERY upset girl. THanks xxxxxx

[maj]

Hello dear

It sucks I know.

But listen, you are very young, and the sooner you get better, with the picking, and about how you feel about yourself the better.

It is VERY important that you get some help somewhere. Can your mother or someone else help you to find a psychologist that knows about things like picking?? Do get help!! It's so difficult to deal with alone.

By the way, well done with the two months.

You can do it again,even though it's not easy I know, but you can get better!

But I have picked for more then ten years, and now for the first time ever, I have almost not picked for 24 days. (still very nervous. Must keep it up, cause I to can't go through life like that)

Also, have you had any help with your skin, at a clinic?
Where are you from?? I had some skin treatment, and it seems to help me.

Write me back if you have any questions or to update if you are getting some help of some sort.
Hugs to you, maj

[anonymousartist]

Try some Desitin Creamy on at night (it's too noticeable to wear during the day) or aloe (aloe gel works fine too). Or neosporin. Anything with Salicylic acid will help reduce redness. I know it sucks, but it is normal to slip up any time someone quits something, so keep trying. You did two months before! You can do it again! It's also very normal for those of us who pick to do it really badly just before an event like a birthday.

I think what you should do is treat what's done the best you can. Forgive yourself. Forget it's there tomorrow (cover with some make-up maybe) and have a damn good birthday party. It won't help to start avoiding things because of picking. Don't let it run your life.

As someone who went through 15 with bad acne and a picking habit...I don't think other fifteen year olds judge each other on their skin very much because most don't have beautiful skin anyway. Your friends aren't friends with you because of your skin, are they? And it could very well be that your mother over-reacted and was ovedr-judgemental (mothers do that sometimes).

Just remember that you're not alone. This is something many people share, even if they don't talk about it, and it's good that you came here to talk about it.

I hope you have a very happy birthday

--Becca.

[garretsma1]

Iam 33, and just now am facing the reality that my picking is a sickness. I notice it gets worse with stress. I can remember when I was 15...hard to believe...what i remember most are the times I missed out on due to my picking. I wish I could go back. You are so young to miss out on so much. I made up so many lies to get out of so many situations. Maybe it was a fear of being hurt by people. I'd pick then I would find an exscuse not to go anywhere. I feel for you. I no that it is so hard. It's pretty cool that you've found this site at such a young age. I have just found out about it today. I wish for you that this helps you now to seek out the help you need to find relief of this sickness at a early age. Just think you don't want to miss out on a job...dating...senior pictures..the prom..you get the idea. Get active in school. Get your mind of IT. I'd love to hear from you I know that Im more then twice your age But I was there, and remember it all too well.