what i'm missing----what i will gain/what i want

[newandbetterme]

hi girls and one or two guys
i'm still healing ,

well i was hoping to start a new section like the zt section...
i got the idea from the weight loss commercial..DON'T THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE LOSING, THINK OF WHAT YOU ARE GAINING.

well the idea..is daily..maybe anytime you or i feel like picking..or down..come here and review the list.
maybe add some positives about ourselves we want to come back..from when we didn't pick.

ok here goes:

NIGHT 1

WHAT I'M MISSING BECAUSE I HAVE CAUSED WOUNDS ON MY SKIN: job, being a good friend, being a good daughter, being a good girlfriend/date, dependability, sincerity,happiness,

WHAT I WANT, WHAT I GAIN BY STOP OBSESSING OVER MINOR FLAW, AND RIPPING MY SKIN: job, being a good friend, being a good daughter, baing a good girlfriend, independence, i will be able to be sincere, happy

[newandbetterme]

replying to myself
continuing the reality check:

what i am missing today...: job, freedom to go to places and see people i want to.

what i will have: freedom, job, frindships, relationships, joy in the day

what i did positive today: exercised in fresh air, did not touch. washed floor. put makeup on healing wound. will go pay some bill.

what i did neg: looked in the mirror during the day and had negative feelings. i think about my boyfriend and how i'm avoiding him.

[newandbetterme]

saturday sept 25
-one month wasted cause of wound
-5 years wasted, not truly enjoyed..


what i'm missing: job gave up, honesty, independence, freedom

what i will gain: all above

+ steps today:
-called boyfriend, did not explain anything but at least did not avoid, i did not see him, but at least cought up on the phone
-went out with mom to the beach, discovered nice places, had nice time outdoors
-left bandaid on, did not take it off (DAY 1 with new bandaid..that can be left on for 4 days or so*new skin wound and blister dressing, over the coutner if anyone is interested)
--did not touch my skin, so what if i have TEMPORARY pimples and skin imperfections, why should this stay in the way of my enjoying the day, life

***** everyone wants to be happy and not suffer