Post by skigirl on Oct 18, 2004 17:04:54 GMT -5
Again, having a terrible day. I just spent countless hours over the weekend hearing from my husband the subtle yet many ways that he would like to destroy my life if we split up. He slid in a comment about how I can expect to see my entire support system fall down in the next couple of weeks. Now I'm not sure if he's planning in just financial ruination, or if he intends to try and destroy things between me and my ex (he did mention telling the guy's wife that we're in contact). So I let it slide off my back as much as humanly possible, until finally I broke down yesterday and cried. That seemed to make him happy, so that was the only time he behaved like a person all weekend. Perhaps I should let him know that I was crying again today, due to school and financial stress. Well, hey, he's probably actually reading this right now anyway, so again, Jeff, FQU. So I went in to prepare my speech, which was met of course with tremendous computer difficulties. Then I proceeded to the financial aid office, where all the magic at school happens, and was told that I could not expect to see any $ for an additional month. Also, after waiting to speak with someone for an hour, I had papers I had to fill out and return to the guy, so when I went bakc I didn't take a number and sit and wait for another hour, because I had to get my kid. Welll, that set some people off and they started yelling at me! And not getting the money is just the news I wanted to hear after my husband told me he'd like to leave me with a bunch of unpaid bills, including my car and phone. Without the phone I can't work. Without the car I can't get to school. Holy hell. My ex is at a train derailment seminar (he's a firefighter), so I can't get any help there. The really great thing about him is that every single time I talk to him or get an email he says at least one very wonderful thing. And he's not trying to or anything, he just knows what things to say to me. And he listens to me. I'll be talking to him and pause and hesitate because I expect him to butt in (like someone else I know), but when I keep talking, he's still listening to me, and he actually has something supportive to say!!!!! Be it wrong or whatever, I need someone like that in my life. Someone who can always put a smile on my face. So now I just have to go back to some of his better emails for my fix. 
