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Post by watercracker on Dec 22, 2003 19:10:49 GMT -5
Does anyone else feel they would miss picking if they stopped?
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Post by pickles on Dec 22, 2003 19:46:32 GMT -5
That is an interesting question that I have never even thought of. I don't know if I would miss it, but I do think it would almost be weird if I never picked again. Maybe that's just cause I've been picking for over half my life. I'll have to think about that one.
pickles
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Laura
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"We cannot all do great things, but we can do small things with great love." - Mother Teresa.
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Post by Laura on Dec 22, 2003 20:42:01 GMT -5
I think I would miss it... but I know that once I stop I would NEVER want to go back!
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Post by iamapicker on Dec 23, 2003 20:42:51 GMT -5
Here is the really sick part, for me:
I would miss the taste of my own blood,
The sight of my 'proof' of being,
The pain that has a cause vs. the pain inside I can't explain because there is no reason for it,
I would miss the control of hurting myself and feeling pain that I caused in order to feel something.
That is the cutter in me speaking, as I am writing I see that so clearly. This is hard for me to say, I do consume myself one drop and one scab at a time from the outside in. I gotta go and mull this for a while. I am sorry, this was perhaps too private, I feel compelled to erase, but I can't let myself do that, this needed to be read - by me.
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Post by Heather on Dec 24, 2003 0:04:18 GMT -5
just wanted to thank you for sharing, iamapicker. You won't be judged here. Many of us feel the same way.
-H
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Lucy
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Post by Lucy on Dec 24, 2003 0:20:42 GMT -5
exactly, many of us are cutters to and do this for the same reasons.
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Post by meiastar on Dec 24, 2003 2:53:11 GMT -5
Picking/cutting is something that gets us through bad times. It's like an old shoe. Maybe it's an ugly old shoe that you hate because it hurts, but it's still familiar, and there's still an attachment. In one of my books on emotional healing ("Love is a Choice" ), it addresses the fact that when we list the losses we've suffered in life, when we're healing from and grieving our pasts, that we should also grieve any addictions that we've left behind. Even though it was bad for us, it still helped us in a way, and losing something that comforted us when we felt bad deserves grief. So, yeah, it's only natural to know that you would miss picking if you quit.  |
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Teresa =)
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"What does not kill me makes me stronger"
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Post by Teresa =) on Dec 27, 2003 17:08:06 GMT -5
we should ask Coelho for some tips....
i think deep on me i need the necesity to get attention damage myself cause i dont know really how to express myslef when i feel bad.. or is just an horrible habit,.... maybe i just like pain... and i find this last one terrible... i get afraid of it
Teresa
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Post by iamapickerstill on Dec 27, 2003 19:33:39 GMT -5
I can deal with the pain I cause for myself with my fingernails or with broken glass, before.
Does my blood not prove that I am alive?
I hurt, therefore I am.
Why should anyone else have the power or the priviledge to hurt me: the pain I give myself is chosen by me, at a time I decide, and I never go beyond what I know I can tolerate.
Once,
I have tried to push the limit but stopped myself with PAXIL, I want to live, perhaps even love again..... Her, me, myself, I.
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Post by iamapicker on Dec 27, 2003 19:41:18 GMT -5
iamapicker and iamapickerstill are one and the same, my clicker was ill. Still learning this computer thing. ;D
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