Zoner
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Post by Zoner on Nov 10, 2003 14:46:06 GMT -5
How's everyone doing? I've done okay- but I'm jonesin' right now! I seriously feel like I'm going through withdrawl- so I'm posting instead. even my hands and fingers feel weird. It's really odd because I'm at work and don't even really pick while I'm here! I'm heading home early from work (just a really slow day and no one here to tell me I can't leave!) I know that when I get home that will be the toughest. so I may just post again. Oh, I didn't realize ZT was the same concept. I like this just in the 24 hour increments though- this is hard enough! one day at a time I think is all i can do right now!
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Post by overit on Nov 10, 2003 17:52:25 GMT -5
I began my 24 hours at 2:00 yesterday and I'm happy to say I made it through until 2:00 today with no major picking...no new sores or redness. I came really close a few times but I kept thinking about the pact and I stopped. I think it helps to do it with others. I feel more accountable. A few things that helped were not turning on the lights while washing my face last night. I also keep repeating a simple mantra to myself that I read here...Let yourself heal. So after my 24 hours was up I did some slight picking/squeezing/zoning in front of the mirror - but no real damage. I decided to quit while I'm ahead and begin the next round of 24 hours ZT. Starting 5:00 tonight. Deep breath....let yourself heal...let yourself heal.
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Post by anon,irresp. on Nov 10, 2003 18:54:04 GMT -5
hi its helpful to remember a mantra i'm currently working on jo's my skin is god's domain, my skin si now god's business and i have no business going there ( hand the responsibility to god).--i keep forgetting parts of it. but if part works good-- , i am doing 1/2 ok. i washed my face and did not further touch the two new scabs on my face, but did touch one on my chin, at least i stopped myself. i did not further damage it. but i did touch it. ----i am still on the 5 to time i go to sleep zt. i'm thinking of starting a thread where i write my progress? i hope it won't take too much space here. if its a bad idea please feel free to tell me.
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FarmGirl
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Post by FarmGirl on Nov 10, 2003 19:46:14 GMT -5
Holy smokes! I'm away for 24 hours and look at this thread! It's on FIRE Anon, (in reference to your added-on name) your waaay to hard on yourself I think. Give yourself some credit will you You've identified what sets you off and that is just a huge hurdle right there! You should be very proud! Your fourth thing on your list is what sets my picking off--social situations. I get sooo anxious I pick, then my face looks like crap, so suddenly I have a "way out" of the social situation. Someone else mentioned that they have that problem too. I think my Lexapro is helping me on that end because for the first time in a year I was able to go over to a neighbors house for a "welcome to the neighborhood" party and I had a great time! Of course it totally helped that it was held outside in the dark only around a campfire with lots of beer flowing. Hey, whatever gets us through the night, right Yeah, definately smaller increments of time are working for me. I figure if I can make it through from waking up at 4:00 a.m. to when the sun sets at 4:00ish than I've done better than I expected. By 4:30 Luc gets home and I'm totally fine until bedtime...which has been around 8:00 lately! How bad is that?! I hate this daylight savings crap.
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Post by Snout63 on Nov 10, 2003 20:15:38 GMT -5
This is the best thread! I'd say I pretty much made it all day. I had this tiny whithead near my earlobe and yes, I squeezed it, got rid of it, and then STOPPED! A total miracle. Normally this would have been followed by a complete face inspection which could last up to a half hour of squeezing, followed by a mess, regret, and depression. I'm on Lexapro for the last two months for panic attacks and I've not notice it help with the picking, tho it does help with the panic attacks. Congrats to everyome who did this! I hope we're back on for Tuesday?
Liz
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Zoner
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Post by Zoner on Nov 10, 2003 20:39:57 GMT -5
Wow I'm so exited about this! everyone seemed to really get into it! Snout63-We're definately on for Tuesday! I'm going to post a new one now so we can start it over. But I totally related to what you said. I was pretty anxious by the time I got home from work and checked myself in the mirror. I found one little one and popped it, but then totally stopped too. Normally I would also have gone on a picking spree, then regretted it etc... I wasn't totally sucessfull, but this really helped! I did find that I periodically kept massaging my head and back looking for things, but I was also able to stop myself. At least I didn't go crazy on my face. That's going to be my focus for now. I'm going to minimize my other other picking too, but I'm definately going for another full 24 hours without touching my face. let's start a new string and a new day! Congratulations to everyone. ;D ;D If you did the full 24 hours pick free- YOU ROCK!! Keep going and don't let little slip ups get you down. If you did slip up, that's okay too! ;D At least i'm sure you picked a lot less than you normally would have. We'll just keep trying!!
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Post by Stef (Incubabe) on Nov 10, 2003 22:59:41 GMT -5
I was messing with scabs last night...but I didnt have any bloody fingernails so theres a plus!! ;D
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Post by scarreddaisy on Nov 11, 2003 1:41:14 GMT -5
yea i fucked up... i knew i couldnt do it
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FarmGirl
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Post by FarmGirl on Nov 12, 2003 9:17:34 GMT -5
Scareddaisy--Your post made me giggle Not because you fucked up, but just the way you said it--so matter of factly and short and to the point. I guess it's also because I actually saw the word "fucked" without any editing--usually most bulletin boards delete that stuff--so it seemed especially naughty to me I hope you don't take my post the wrong way, just that your honesty brought a smile to my face. Take care and I hope all is well.
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Teresa =)
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Post by Teresa =) on Nov 12, 2003 16:03:41 GMT -5
oki i am in... 1 day clean and free as a bird ;D Teresa
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