i am the only one

[newandbetterme]

well its been bout 5 yrs or so
and its getting worse
i am literally homebound
i can't have any social interaction
i can't have a job
i have had an infection on my face for the last 4 months.
first on one side
now on the other side of my face.
i've been to the doctor
i have resistant bacteria
i'm on antibiotics. second dose now.
still not healed. doc says prob couple of more weeks.








i am the only one might make me realize that its not ok to just touch and jab at my skin. nobody else seems to do that. at least the majority does not.

i can't depend on my parents keeping me when i'm sick and being given second chances when i go to interviews. wondering why has she been out of work for such a long time. and why did she work only a couple of months a year.

[buni1]

You sound so much like me,Ive lost numerous jjobs and im working on losing my wonderful husband because he cant take it anymore..
well I picked today--ill be divorced tomorrow..

[Spring Angel]

Please, Please don't be so hard on yourselves! this is a terrible and devastating disorder. You are not bad people trying to get good, you are sick people trying to get well. What if you tried to be as kind to yourself as you would be to say a good friend who had cancer? What if you were as kind to yourselves as you would be say with a baby kitten? What if you held your hands to your face very gently and cradled your face like you would cradle a newborn baby, so very carefully. You are both beautiful human beings. Honor yourselves today.

Come to the support board and work on the 12 steps with us. Please come. What do you have to lose? by trying. You so deserve to get well, and have hope. Every human being deserves to have hope.

I am sending a small packet of hope to each of you. It is some of mine, I am giving some away and will make more. My face has healed and is almost clear. I touch my fingers to my cheek now and can for the first time in my life feel the fine downy fuzz of the tiny hairs on my skin and it feels so soft. Not all covered in scabs and caked on concealer.

It is working for me, it is working for Jo, and Connie, why can't it work for you too.

sending love and understanding and prayers,

Spring Angel