this is the real deal.

[rabbitmoon]

hey. i have some really important advice to give to you all. bear with me. im going to go through every aspect of this but i think it is all very important. this is what i have gathered after battling this affliction for over seven years. age 12 to 19. ive been to therapists and dermatologists been on pills and drugs and tried practically every kind of product on the market tried ALL KINDS of techniques on myself, struggled with weird hormones, smoking, the works. you could say i know my sh*t. first off, please stop taking those antibiotics. they are SO very harmful to your body and immune system. especially the ones that say you cant get in the sun while taking them. a bit of sun works wonders for your skin, body, bones, immune system, etc. i dont trust the doctors. medicine is a money-making business. trust your gut. the basis of this problem, as most of you know is purely emotional and you DO need therapy! dont be ashamed. everyone in the world needs therapy. find a therapist you truly trust and like. mine is an auric healer. my old, standard psychologist was lukewarm dishwater in comparison. dont be scared. push all the limits for the sake of yourself. YOU ARE WORTH IT. dont let anyone make you ashamed. the tips for quitting page on this site is fabulous. use them. i found that the more conscious i was of my problem, the more that i brought it from the back of my mind to the front, the easier it was to restrain myself. example: i've always been a night-picker. going to the bathroom to wash up for the night was highly dangerous. BUT if im conscious of myself, i can ground myself before i go in, think clear thoughts and think about how i will NOT harm myself tonight just out of love. it will make you strong. dont just fuss about the problem. soul-search for the answer. drop your energy down. feel your humble body. ok here's the real sh*t: lose all the chemical-ridden, things-you-cant-pronounce products. shop naturally. the list of ingredients should make sense to you and feel good. THESE THINGS TRULY MATTER. be good to yourself. your body tries so hard to be good to you. these are the things that work beautifully for me: rinse your face and dry it. extract an egg yolk from the white and put a thinish layer of yolk on your face, etc. let it dry for ten minutes then rinse and wash. do this daily and your face will become UNBELIEVABLY smooth. moisturized but not oily. and your scratches and such will heal much more quickly, given that you allow them to do so. now here's another one: there's somehting called AZTEC SECRET indian healing clay. its pure green clay from cali and you mix it with water and layer it fat all over your face. let it dry then rinse off and wash. this stuff is genuinely AMAZING. its hard to find anywhere but online. just serch that name i gave you like on google.com and a gazillion sites will come up that sell it. shop around on them and you will find a really good deal. if you mix it with apple cider vinegar it works twice as well. this stuff will cleanse your pores of toxins and make you glow. IT WILL NOT DRY YOUR SKIN just leaves it perfectly moistuized. i dont recommend this clay unless your skin is slightly healed up, i.e., you have no fresh open wounds on your lovely face. because that would probably hurt. now here's more: EXFOLIATE EXFOLIATE EXFOLIATE EXFOLIATE. there is nothing else that you can do that will improve your skin more. the less dry flakes of skin you have, the less likely you are to pull them off. it will improve your skin's health and circulation and texture and you will glow. again, dont do this if your face is sore. let it heal for a couple of days before you do this. the best thing ive found is an exfoliating cloth. i found it at target for like 2 bucks. i love it. the scratchiness will feel so good. remember though, ITS NOT SUPPOSED TO HURT. pay attention to these monsters: don't lean your head in your hands. try to touch your face as little as possible. disinfect your telephones and cell phones, etc. wash your face gently as soon as you get home from school or work. keep your pillowcases and hair very clean. wear as little makeup as is comfortable for you. WASH IT OFF BEFORE YOU GO TO BED EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO DO IT WITH THE LIGHTS OFF!!!! think hard of all the things that may touch your face every day and either clean them, or dont touch them. also very important: drink LOTS of water. this will not add moisture to your skin, but it will detox your skin and body like crazy. drink as much as you can. you will feel and look better. (dont drink tap water. distilled is best.) eat LOTS of vegetables and fruit. these contain the actually building blocks of skin renewal and make you glow and be healthy and really detoxify. and this will also help to balance your hormones and make all your systems run comrrectly. go to your healthfood store talk to the people there. they are sweet. pick up some skin-improving herbs if you like. look around and learn. nature will ALWAYS heal you better than chemicals. quit smoking if you can. see, this is not just one issue. this is a matter of full-body health. not to mention mental, emotional, and spiritual health. TEXTTEXTTEXTNOTHING WILL HELP YOU UNTIL YOU HELP YOUR HEART AND SOUL. okay. now listen. this is not going to be easy. its going to take a whole-soul revival. what in your life is unhappy? change it. whats holding you down? kick it off. and in a hurry, too. this is your LIFE and you deserve to have it. example: i live in a town that i despise. ive lived here for 16 years. in a month im quitting my job, losing my apartment and taking off across the country with my sweetest friend. my skin-neurosis is subtle these days, not a ferocious tearful problem like it used to be but i know in my heart this trip is going to cure me. if you think something will help your heart, do it. dont think. do you have a boyfriend who doesnt listen to you? drop him. you dont need that loser. are you holding anger towards your mother? well damn, most people are. get help. learn to forgive. tell yourself in extremely loud ecstatic thoughts that YOU WANT HEALTHY SKIN. know that you are beautiful now, and you will have the courage to be caring to your beautiful skin. mainly: LOVE. love love love. it will keep you and heal you. in a nutshell: keep it simple and natural. natural is beautiful. keep your skin clean and take my humble advice. get help and follow your heart. open your soul and love. let all go. my love and support are with you. this will be by my mirror. it's cummings:

let it go
the smashed word broken-
open vow or the oath cracked
length-wise
let it go it
was sworn to go.

let them go
the false fair friends and the
truthful liars the boths
and neithers let
them go
they were born
to go.

let all go
the big small middling
tall bigger really
the biggest and all things

let all go

dear

so comes love.


-e.e. cummings

[gratefulbh]

If you are reading this, you need to know how incredibly brave you are for being here! This site has helped me SOOOOO much! Rabbitmoon, YOU are the real deal. I cannot tell you how many times I have read that post or walked into the bathroom --and thought "I will not harm myself--out of love."

THank you also to whomever wrote the post about exfoliating with sugar! It is the best--so is Clearisil (sp?) Vanishing Cream 10% Benzoil Peroxide.

It really is about giving your skin a different kind of attention! Instead of picking exfoliating & moisturing is the KEY:) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

[scarreddaisy]

Grateful I'm glad you've tried the sugar scrub... When I found it I thought it was a god send.. Rabbitmoon... what you wrote there.... wow... There is a lot of soul searching and advice and saddness on this site.. A lot of support and understanding... but the inspirtaion that you have just posted is hard to come by. Thank you so much for posting it... It completely vanquishes the arguments of "well I dont know what to do... or where to begin..." I'm going to make a list... of all your suggestions...and when I am feeling helpless and defeated I will go through and decide which piece of your advice suits my situation... Your absolutely right that everything we need to improve ourselves is natural... The egg I have done before and it works fabulously ( if you grind up quick oats that helps absorb excess oil and sweat as well without drying your skin). I knwo I need to watch what I put into my body since my weigh fluctates and always goes lower that I wish... Recently I have changed my eating habits and my skin which has been blotchy my ENTIRE lfie finally looks smooth and healthy... ANyway, thank you again... It was just the kick in the butt that I needed.

[inextremis]

You go girl! Rabbitmoon, I have come back to this a few times now and the words you wrote are just devinely inspired. May you and all of us do everything we can to live in that spirit!

Have been doing the egg and sugar thing, also washing w/oatmeal- I was intrigued by what you said about unpronouncable ingriedients and found a site that has a lot of interesting suggestions for 'kitchen' skin care
www.geocities.com/naturesskincare2001/index.htm

so far, so good...

[mozjen]

rabbitmoon, thanks for the amazing words! the poem by e.e.cummings really spoke to me. i'm going to try the egg yolk thing and a few other things you mentioned. i'm also someone who takes a more holistic approach to life and my body in general, and since i discovered/identified my CSP problem last month (i've been struggling with it for 15 years w/o knowing what it was), i've been trying to figure out a way to approach it that isn't medication-based. your words were really inspiring, and you've throw some really great, concrete tips out there as well! thanks thanks thanks.. AND ALL THE BEST ON YOUR UPCOMING JOURNEY!!! let us know how it all goes...