haven't been here for a while

[tina]

Hello everyone,

I used to write on this board a lot and stopped for a while, no idea why.

Well, I am back. My skin picking is no better than it was before. I tried even joining OCA -Obsessive Compulsive Anonymous. I stopped going there after about a week.

I have sores all over my face, on my neck, arms and back. I feel so homely and disgusting.

Well, I hope writing here again will help me, as it once did.

[waste]

Hi Tina, I read your post about your past as a stripper and how you felt ugly in your pampered shell. That was a memorable story.
I am not sure what to write, but I just wanted to write something to someone...I've picked at my skin for years, i think since i was an adolescent...can't remember when i started but maybe in 7th grade, and now I am almost 22. I pick at my chest and face and back and used to on my legs but stopped mostly. I used to have guilt trips afterwards and try to stop but was not successful for long timeperiods and then when i was successful and my skin would clear up i'd start again because it was a comfortable habit and way of reducing stress and anxiety i guess. I am pretty apathetic about it now and I am also binge forcefeeding myself and trying to get fat. It's so stupid and I have manic ish bouts of wanting to get myself back together, but then I just decide not to.
I'm tired of writing about myself so I'll stop here.

[Dee13]

Hang in there, keep working at it and you will have good times and bad times, like us all.

Please use all the tricks you can to put yourself in environments that prevent you from attacking yourself. Volunteering if you can is great, or visit sick or old people.

[tina]

thanks guys for making me feel welcome to come back!