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Post by petunia on Apr 23, 2005 20:42:29 GMT -5
that you reached the fatty layer? i think i have, only a few times. i was digging and digging, trying to get all of the sh*t out of my skin, when all of a sudden it wasnt just the little white masses/balls anymore, it was this gooey, stringy white stuff, that didnt have a solid form. i realized i'd gone beyond the skin layer. i felt so sick to my stomach and stopped immediately. i then let it heal. i guess i had to get to that point before i would leave the thing alone. ironically though, the few spots where that happened, healed smoothly, w/out the bumpy scar that often leads me to re-pick a healed spot. (i'm not saying to do this though!!! it was really gross and i'm sure it was very harmful and could have led to a bad infection or worse)
has this happened to anyone else?
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Spring Angel
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Post by Spring Angel on Apr 23, 2005 22:39:57 GMT -5
Petunia,
I have stripped blood vessels out. I know they are below the skin layer. Please do try not to do that any more okay. Make a committment to take some positive action. I think you are new here maybe? Not sure, but I posted a new message on the OSPA thread which had gone down to page two, maybe you would like to try the steps on picking? Take a look and see what you think. I'll be around.
Petunia, please use neosporin okay?
Sending some hugs and encouragement,
luv,
Spring
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Post by Stef (Incubabe) on Apr 24, 2005 2:34:01 GMT -5
I've done that. Many times. It's gross, but it never makes me stop. I've developed some sort of immunity to the pain. I don't feel a thing anymore and that's kind of sick. But yes, it's gross. I've done it.
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Post by blondie88 on Apr 24, 2005 3:35:24 GMT -5
Oh crap, I think I've dug to there too. Crap I thought it was just pus or something! I haven't picked to that extent in a while though, I haven't had anything major recently because of the Retin-A I'm using, even after a major picking session. ugh God I feel sick now.. fatty layer/stripped blood vessels. ugh. Like Incubabe though, I never feel any pain when I pick, even if I am pretty much tearing my skin apart. ugh I still feel sick though. I haven't picked today (except for 2 white spots which came up after last night's picking session). I'm gonna go put my mirror in the other room now lol  |
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Post by Stef (Incubabe) on Apr 24, 2005 15:24:48 GMT -5
Here's a gross story that you'll all appreciate. lol
When I was about...five or six...I fell off my bike. We had a rock driveway back then and I ended up getting rocks under my skin in my knee. It was there forever. I remember seeing it all the time, this gross black spot in my knee.
Well...it's gone now...lol About a year and a half ago, I removed it myself. :-\ Talk about not feeling pain. It hurt for a little while, but it was deep in there and I'm surprised I didn't pass out. LOL
But I cared for the wound properly and went on with life. No more rocks in my skin. :-\
I'm a sicko.
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Post by petunia on Apr 28, 2005 14:55:02 GMT -5
i cant believe i just did it again. after posting about how horrible it is to pick so deeply, i go and dig down to the fat again. i am so disgusting and weak. i feel so powerless over this thing. this is a spot thats been there for over six months now, and it wont heal. every time it gets close, it gets all swollen up again w/all of that white crap that i am obsessed w/getting rid of. its not like it just scabs over and i pick the scab; it seems to keep re-growing those white things.
sorry to gross every one out. i truly disgust myself.
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tina
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Post by tina on Apr 28, 2005 15:57:28 GMT -5
Petunia,
I know you feel like you should have been cured from this kind of picking episode after writing about it but it is a process. Don't beat yourself up-- you'll pick more if you do that. Be kind to yourself.
I sometimes think I should be cured because I write here and I am acutely aware of my picking.
It definitely is a process. Sometimes I don't pick, sometimes I do. But as I talk about it here I am finding solace and healing and I have been pick free for about 10 days. Keep writing about it and evetually you will get some freedom from picking.
When you feel the need to pick so deeply, get right online and write. And if you are not near the board, writing in a simple journal will do.
I learned a bunch of tips from this support board. The first step is to be aware that I am picking. From there I try to divert my hands from my face, back, neck, shoulders etc. Typing and writing helps me do that. Also I learned to forgive myself when I do pick. I am already cruel enough to myself without berating myself for picking- an action which I have no control over.
You said it best- you are powerless over it. Now accept that and know that when the time is right, you will stop or at least minimize your picking.
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Post by Froglet on May 2, 2005 14:52:39 GMT -5
Ive picked deep horrors before. Big holes on my fore head that gape and don't heal. I smother them with concealer which makes the scap soggy and I end up all gooey and gross! I once picked a spot between my eyes. At first I thought id just have a little poke, but of course the damn think was deep rooted. So after an evening of jabbing it with tweezers and such, I woke up the next morning with what looked like a gunshot between my eyes, and huge puffy nose bridge! I looked like a Klingon! Or one of those vampires from Buffy! I took a picture to remind my self not to do it again... for the first time, I actually have a place on my body I activly don't pick. Not a big place, but a start.
I did once read that a woman picked so far into her arm, that she reached tendons and stuff and had to go to hospital. Thats scary!
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rachaelskate
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Once you pop you cant stop
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Post by rachaelskate on May 2, 2005 14:55:06 GMT -5
Froglet you are so funny
I know what u mean,
You feel like you have an ALIEN in there!
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Post by drprincess on May 5, 2005 18:43:56 GMT -5
Has anyone picked so deep they developed a really bad infection that was resistant to antibiotics and the doctors were possibley thinking of amputating part of the infected area. The reason why ask is there is widespread antibiotic resistance and MRSA(methycillin resistance and VRE(vancomycin resistance enterococci) going on in the community which is likely to get worse. ALL antibiotics, especially ointments become resistant after while, and stop working. Infact there have been cases in which people actually wound up dying of what started out as a simple staph infection which eventually spread to the blood. Just wondering?
drprincess
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Post by metric on May 5, 2005 22:30:59 GMT -5
i've definitely heard about the antibiotic resistance, but i've never experienced it or known someone who has
i'm allergic to every antibiotic except 1 or 2...could i develop a resistance and then be screwed?
hey 'hooked', get it??!
i'm sorry that was so bad but i had so say it
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Post by guestguest on May 6, 2005 14:33:50 GMT -5
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Post by Happyface! on May 16, 2005 21:56:27 GMT -5
Yes, I too have picked way too deep. I have also squeezed so hard that I've had terrible bruises. The worst is when it's just under the eyes. I can't believe that I can squeeze so hard and not notice the pain, but wake up the next day with a big black eye. My husband hates it when I do that because anyone who sees me thinks that he did it! Especially when I come up with some really lame excuse.
He's truly a very gentle and good man. I felt very bad for him the last time and have managed not to do it again. I promised myself that if it happens again, I'll have to tell people the truth, and that's a thought that I can't bear!
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