Grrrr.

[Me2]

Hi everyone.

As you can see by the subject of this thread, I am having a rough night. I have been doing better than ever because of taking seroquel along with celexa. Tonight, though I gave in when i didn't realy have to. It was kind of weird. I think I was testing, and then I had a hard time stopping. My chest is stinging now, which is familiar, though it doesn't bring the same "comfort" that it used to.

I wonder if I have some fear about quiting. Perhaps I won't know what to do with all of my extra time. Maybe I think deep down that I deserve this. I wonder sometimes if picking is my expression of things that I feel but don't know how to articulate. So, Grrr.

Thanks to anyone who reads this. I just really need to let some of this out in a way that isn't picking. I am frustrated because summer is coming and I love to be in the sun. I am also trying to get good skin before my friend gets married in September. My bride's maid dress is a sleeveless, lowish cut. I am afraid to have to explain why I have marks on my skin.

Grrr.

Fay

[sunshinefunk]

Hey,
I have thought about that too. I mean, if I don't pick, what else am I going to do?

I am also a bridesmaid in a July wedding. They are tank style tops and long skirts. Hopefully, I won't look too botched. If I ever get married, the bridesmaids can where whatever they want!

I'm glad you quitting is going well. It's okay to slip up sometimes. We all do. Take care,
-Kate-

[lorieann75]

I can relate to your concerns. I remember vividly my all time "record" for NOT picking. It was for a specific "reason" or event, and I managed it with great difficulty- without meds even. I have never seemed to be able to beat that record since, but there's always hope right?

It was for a formal dinner, and I had a gorgeous spaghetti strap velvet blue gown. The only thing "covering" my arms and shoulders would be a sheer scarf, and it didn't "cover" much. I went an entire 30 days without picking in THOSE spots- I should add- not "everywhere" but I sure wish I could hit that point again!

Goodluck to you with the bridesmaids dress. The only help I might be able to offer is- try not to let this event or "deadline" make you feel even MORE anxiety than you might already, because that can simply push you to pick more- in my experience. Instead, do your best to try those alternate behaviors like handling a pencil, or whatever it takes to occupy those hands. Even gloves!

[KateyKat]

ack! I know what you mean about the dress. I was in my moms wedding... I had a very nice dress. And I had my hair all nice. But then in the wedding picture..there I am with marks and scars on my arms.

I dont know what I would do if I stopped. When I am going at my face for example I get all into it and everything around me seems to stop...even my hearing is diminished. A lot of time seems to go by when I am engaged in all that. So what else would I do if I wasnt into it? I have a few other diagnosis I can get into I guess (but not a good idea)

[KateyKat]

ack! I know what you mean about the dress. I was in my moms wedding... I had a very nice dress. And I had my hair all nice. But then in the wedding picture..there I am with marks and scars on my arms.

I dont know what I would do if I stopped. When I am going at my face for example I get all into it and everything around me seems to stop...even my hearing is diminished. A lot of time seems to go by when I am engaged in all that. So what else would I do if I wasnt into it? I have a few other diagnosis I can get into I guess (but not a good idea)

[Me2]

Hi everyone.

Once again, Grrrr! I have a bandaid on my cheek right now. my boyfriend unwittingly replaced the hallway light and I could see the spot on my cheek very well. There is a morror in the hallway

I have picked this spot before. It heals most of the way and then I get a syst under the scar. I ought to be fine with it, but I am not. (Especially when I can see it well). I got everything out of it though, and for some strange reason I feel justified in picking it.

Otherwise, I have been doing pretty well still. I am enjoying the freedom of wearing t-shirts this summer, and hope to graduate to tamk tops within the month!

I hope everyone is doing well.

Fay

[pinto123]

hi Me2:

are you located in vancouver?

i ask because i am too and maybe we can recommend some good derms/treatments to each other ??

[Me2]

Hi Pinto!

OMG I can't believe there is someone on here from BC! I am located in the Kootenays (Nelson). We won't be able to share about therapists, but maybe if we are everin each other's area we could meet. I think that would be pretty cool.

Fay